Several years ago, ina difficult time in my life, I had a dream.
I was in a maze. Sputtering lightbulbs couldn’t chase away the shadows on the never-ending concrete walls. I was trapped; wandering, calling for help in a trembling voice. I thought one person was the only one who could save me, but he never came. I was utterly alone.
Looking back, I realize that I had used him as a replacement for God. On Saturday, I was praying to apologize for that, as well as to receive healing and deliverance from that time in my life. I was awake, but God took me back to that dream.
I was back in the maze. In the midst of my cries, God gently said, “Who do you choose to save you, him or me?” I answered, “You, God.” The lights immediately went out. It was pitch black, but I knew I wasn’t alone. God said, “My daughter, step into the darkness.”
God had shown himself to me as a light, but never as darkness. I had my share of dark times, in which God had provided for and comforted me in. But this was different. I could see the darkness.
Nevertheless, I took a small step forward. Immediately, God took my hand in his. He pulled me into his arms and picked me up as his child. Immediately, the maze vanished, and in its place, an unbelievably bright light radiated around us. I was delivered from the maze, and I was safe in the arms of my Father.
I didn’t want to leave what I was used to, calling for help, with my echo as the only response. I was afraid of the dark. I was afraid of what would happen. But I when I followed God by stepping forward, in spite of what I was feeling, he rescued me. He replaced my sputtering lightbulbs with radiance. He took away my empty echoes, and pulled me into his arms. Even when I thought what I had was best for me, he had something better. I just had to trust in his guidance and promises of comfort. I had to step into the darkness.
“There’s no shadow you won’t light up, mountain you won’t climb up, coming after me. There’s no wall you won’t kick down, lie you wont tear down, coming after me. Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending reckless love of God.“
