It’s All Because She’s Loved

Anyone who can inspire me to go running lately is kind of a Big Deal! Patty, the one I told you about, had a day of little pain from the endometriosis or treatments and she ended up running not once, but TWICE! So, I thought to myself if she can do that, then I need to get off my butt and go stretch my legs out. Plus, looking outside my window it was just too beautiful of a day to pass up. The unusual cold Florida weather is warming up and the light breeze was just right. So I dusted my old sneakers off that happened to be dirtier than the ones I walked through 11 countries in, grabbed my ipod and let loose!

 

Ha, honestly it was probably my least impressive run ever, but it was one of my favorites.
I ran, then walked, then ran again and … walked. I just enjoyed running for no one other than myself. And He was there too.

I love when I don’t need to say anything, but can just throw my arms up, let out a big smile, and be me.

He kinda loves when I do that!

I stop trying to be the someone I sometimes feel I have to be, and the release allows me to just thrive as the woman He made me.

I have a lot of anxious thoughts lately, hence another reason why I was craving to run. 
I leave for Spain in 16 days to attend a discipleship training center that will train and prepare me for my calling! I’m excited, but the questions of what lie ahead is there. I sit here thinking that I have no clue what I am getting myself in to and that maybe I just stepped in to something way over my head.

And I wonder why I do it.

Last night I got to speak at a church about this past year and finished up with the burden of my heart on human trafficking. As I was getting ready to speak I just kept feeling like I can’t do this. But I knew the truth was is that I can, and I stand in the power of Christ. FYI public speaking is not what I love to do, but silence doesn’t bring life and change in this world, does it? So I think about Spain and I feel like screaming I can’t do this. But the truth is, is that I can!

Three mornings ago, whether I was dreaming this or what, but I woke up to the words “because she’s loved” going through my thoughts over and over again. And I knew immediately those words were for every woman and child out there suffering some sort of injustice. In that, God gave me the answer to why I can do this…because she’s loved. God told me this is why you’re here…because she’s loved. It’s why I cannot quit, it’s why I will not let the uncomfortable overcome me, its why my anxiousness will be handed over to God maybe a hundred times a day and every day….is because she’s loved! And in the meantime, it’s because I am loved too.

Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and I think what can I, out of all people, do to change the world?!

It’s me, I’m not really a big deal.

But God has brought me to the point of saying, no, despite the odds and excuses, it is going to start with me! I don’t have to change the entire world, I just have to change my world which means wherever he calls me to I’m to bring Kingdom. So for now, I will be seeing friends, soaking up time with the family, speaking where I can, and just living each day doing what I am called to do…bring His Kingdom.

 
Oh and Lord, don’t forget to have grace on me!!!!!!