I am sitting here on my living room couch at home babysitting my little nephew that I got to meet for the first time just a few days ago!
Ahhh, and I am home!
It feels weird to finally say that phrase. I’ve been trying to prepare myself for this moment of being alone, having my own room, taking a real shower, being asked the many questions like “how was your year?”, and so on.
You may ask how is it to be home? Well, the best way I can explain it is that it feels like two worlds have collided and I got caught in the middle. What is real? What was real? Who am I now? I have to cling to truth like never before. I have to remember who God told me I am this past year, I cannot go back to who I was because that is not who I am.
It’s hard to believe that this journey is over. 11 countries in 11 months!
I like to believe that God used me to transform lives, transform the nations. I do know that the people I met transformed me. I am a new person because I met the hundreds of “you’s” (whoever you may be) around the world. I see the world new, I see my world new, I see you new.
I want you to know that you also changed my world too. Your prayers and support changed lives around the world as well. You made a difference, and there is more awaiting you. Don�ft lose heart, don’t lose vision. Someone once told me that if you are still breathing, then God’s not done using you yet. If you’re reading this, you’re most likely breathing! =) There are so many things that a lot of us feel we have to do to please God. From my experience ….
Just look to His face. Seek His heart. He loves you. He sees you. And He has never left your side. Feelings change, but the truth is what remains.
You also may ask, “So what’s next?”
I was hoping that you would ask that!
God has shown me a lot of who I am this past year….
A mouthpiece to the nations.
A voice for the voiceless.
One who stands against injustice.
I kept asking God, “What do I do with that? Where do I go from here?”
And He answered.
I have applied and been accepted to G42 Leadership Training Center located in Spain.
It’s a place where I can be discipled one on one.
It’s a place that teaches the foundation of God’s character and his heart.
It’s a place that helps you fabricate your calling into a reality.
And it is the next step God is asking me to take.
I know Spain sounds like an amazing place to go, but in all honesty it’s a very uncomfortable step for me to take. But I want to be in God’s will and if that means getting into the uncomfortable, then I will do it. Because I have to remember, it’s not about me, it’s about the Kingdom of God.
This is my team…Team Umoja….in Moldova at the end of our year!
“We have fought the good fight, we have finished the race, we have kept the faith.”
-2 Timothy 4:7
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