So I have to tell you about some pretty awesome experiences God has allowed me to partake in these last couple of weeks 🙂
Last week I read a race blog about a girl who was fully funded for her World Race in 16 weeks!! In 16 Weeks all $15,500 came in. Wow! I decided to read the blog to my mom to share about how awesome God is in providing in such ways, like in the ways he did for that girl.
We sat back for a second and I realized that I could be just like that girl! I counted out my weeks. I have about 17 weeks. I have an extra week than this girl too! And that is when it hit me…
I REALLY COULD be like this girl!! I COULD be fully funded by my launch in September. I COULD see all $15, 500 come to my race account in 17 weeks. So now that my thinking was in the right place, I kind of had to get a grip on how, when, where, why, and who.
I heard God's whisper. "I can do this for you, Kate!" I brush away those sweet words as if it were a fly buzzing in my ear, only to hear it again, "I can do this for you, Kate!" I felt as if my brain had received the message, but was playing tennis with the idea. I would accept what I heard, but then not believe it could be possible. Back and forth. I would jump at the idea that God really could do what he said he could, then hit the idea back to the other side with a load of disbelief in the whole idea.
As I went through the day, I decided I would at least try to seek out what God was saying. I thought the best way to do this would be to enlist some prayer warriors. I honestly asked other people to pray for the idea of being fully funded because I didn't know if I would have enough faith in the idea.
I stand there praying in my head that God would bring in all my funds by September, but I quickly put a footnote on the end saying that if God didn't want me to be fully funded than that’s ok, or if God wills Ill be fully funded. Simple prayers of little faith. Why could I not fully believe God would help me be fully funded?
He knew I needed a little lesson in this area, so I went to my job at school. I ended up misplacing my clipboard that keeps track of my children. It really wasn't a big deal, but I was stressing over it. When I was doing errands with my mom that night, I told her about the clipboard. She stops talking about the issue and immediately starts to pray. She prays something like, "God would you please bring to light this clipboard. Would you allow it to be sitting on Kate's desk when she gets there, and she won't be able to contain the praise she will have for you." Who would have thought to pray for a missing clipboard??
To my disbelief….I walk into my class to my kids saying "SURPRISE! WE FOUND YOUR CLIPBOARD!" I felt weak in my knees from my deep desire to drop to the floor to praise Jesus. It was exactly like my Mom had prayed the night before. Who would have thought to pray for a missing clipboard?! I mean really!! It is nothing!
So as it may be, the lesson hit home. If we could pray for a missing clipboard to be found, then why can I not pray to be fully funded in 17 weeks!?!! Not only that but pray and receive the missing clipboard, then why would the God who loves me more than lillies of the field not provide for ALL of my needs.
In the days after that I "stumbled", or God directed me, to some special verses.
"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. (Matthew 7:7-8)
Mark 9:23-24 from the story about Jesus healing a possessed boy. "If you can'? said Jeus. "Everything is possible for one who believes." [And my personal prayer] Immediately the boy's father exclaimed, "I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief."
Praise Jesus for these sweet moments that he reminds us of his overflowing, unending, unconditional love for us! May he help me in my faith, and grow me in my trust of his power over my own!!
