Oh, my I love my Lord so, so much!
As you all know two weeks ago I was at training camp and in my blog post last week I chose to do a packing list for the future racer, but this time I would like to tell you about the spiritual awakening and the rebirth that I experience and am now living.
While at training camp God completely and most definitely wrecked. It turns out that it was all the good kind because God came in and recked me with his love. and he got to pick up all my broken pieces and put me back together the way he saw fit.
During these ten days, I experienced excruciating pain. the kind of pain that you bury deep inside of you because you never want to feel it. I faced it and felt the pain because God was telling me to put all my cards on the table and deal with my hurt and shame that I had been carrying for 18 years. The pains that I had buried God took and showed me forgiveness. He started to mold me and the most important part was I let him. He showed me how to FORGIVE. The kind of forgiveness that is only possible through Jesus. he made it clear to me how to forgive others and to forgive myself. God gave me a glimpse at what his LOVE can do, and what his death on the cross means for me. he reminded me over and over again that He takes us as we are. even if we are broken we wants us. So this healing process started to turn into a greater understanding of who my Lord and Savior really is and the greater love he has. it was brought to light that my knowledge of Christ was limited and my relationship with Him was only scraping the surface. I was living with just excepting knowing him and not ever really ever having a deep relationship and partnership with him. I wanted more. so I got it. I have learned how to talk to my friend named Jesus and constantly be in direct communication with him. His voice is only going to get louder, and constantly more familiar the more I talk to him. Yes God is so good. don’t take for granted knowing him he offers so much.
Now that I have rambled about how mazing my revelation with Christ has been I can tell you that on the last day of training I had the amazing and life-changing opportunity to recommit my life to Christ. and to make this even better I got to do it in front of 270 of my other fellow brothers, and sisters in Christ (racers). It was so refreshing to raise out of that little blow-up pool in Gainsville, Georgia declaring Gods powerful name and being completely transformed by His LOVE. He has stirred in me a fire that can not be put out. He has created a love so deep, a love so wide, and a love so strong that I will have no fear in LOVE. for I know that when sin creeps in and the world wants to pull me back he will call my name for he is my friend and I will go. for His love never fails.
here is a picture of me getting baptized by to of my amazing leaders Corbyn and Taylor!!
*right after I was baptized I got to be apart of baptizing Caz!! it was so amazing to both have a new experience with CHRIST and be walking into A new life with our Lord together.
