Fear can eat you up like a disease. Fear gets a hold of you and traps you like a jail cell. You can try to escape it but some times it will swallow you backup.?
I’m talking from experience. It all started as a little girl when I witnessed my dad beat up my mom day after day. I was so afraid that my dad would beat her to death that I would sleep with her and hug her all night hoping that nothing would happen to her.
When I was 7 years old, I got typhoid fever and almost died.
When I was 10 years old my dad died. At that point, my heart was so hard and caused me to have fear of abandonment, death, and not be loved.
I had an identity crisis.
When I was 17 years old, the Lord wooed me into His Kingdom. I’m so thankful that the Lord wanted me and loved me enough to choose me. He softly called my name and healed every wound from the past and has taught me who I am in Him.
I write this not to make anyone feel bad for me but to give God all the glory for my life and what He has done. Let me be clear. It hasn’t been easy. It has been a massive rollercoaster, but it sure has been good. Anything you give to or for the Lord is worth it. He is worth it of it all.
I started writing this blog in the middle of the month when I was in India and this is what I wrote in my journal: “I am sitting here in the middle of the church in India right now. Honestly, it hasn’t been and easy month, it has been the hardest month thus far. However, it’s been great in so many ways. I’m so thankful but at the same time I am counting the days for the upcoming month. We have been to a whole lot of villages, prayed for many sick and demon possessed people, baptized people, played with a lot of beautiful children, preached the gospel, shared testimonies, gone to the beach, have ridden in a tuk-tuk with 14 other people in it, slept in the roof of the church, seen snakes, rates, bugs, ants, lizards, have eaten large amounts of cheepotee (like a flour tortilla) and rice and have learned to love the unloved. I wouldn’t change this month in India for anything. Even when we had no running water, or electricity at times, or when we were crammed inside of a small tuk-tuk with 14 other people in it, or when we were overfed extremely spicy food… It was all worth it. I’m not complaining, I’m thankful. “…
I don’t know how to end this so….
if you are living with fear, know that you don't have to! Don't believe the lies, agree with what the bible says. Do not fear. Call those things that are not as though they are.
“I will never leave you nor forsake you. So we can confidently say, ‘The Lord is my helper; I will not fear; what can man do to me?’” Hebrews 13:5-6?
