DIE TO LIVE

My whole life I grew up with so many lies that I started to believe.  I believed that I was not "white" enough, smart enough, good enough, pretty enough, or anything enough for anything.  I believed I was INSIGNIFICANT!  This made me start acting and wanting to be like other people.  I was NEVER myself. I had NO identity.  You know that saying when your parents said  "…if your friend jumps off a cliff would you do it to?"… more than likely I would of done it too, so people could "approve" of me and "like" me.    This is exactly what Satan tries to do, to kill, steal, and destroy. He tried to do this to me and my identity through so many different situations in my life.   …and that is unacceptable for the children of God. 

Honestly it has been a long process and recently God has been teaching me of MY IDENTITY IN HIM.  I don't want to be like anyone else… I want to be like JESUS! The Lord has taught me that I am a His daughter, the King's daughter, that I don't lack anything, and that HE is ENOUGH for me.  The problem with me was that I didn't love myself and I needed to learn to love myself as much as He loved me and had to learn to see myself with my Father's eyes.  

I have learned and realized that I can't be like anyone else because I was created to be like Jesus; made in His image.  

What do I do now?  DIE TO LIVE!  

That is exactly what I want to do. Die to Myself to HE can live in me!!!! I am so ready to give up everything I have…. my job, my home, my friends, my family, my comfort…EVERYTHING for the ONE WHO GAVE IT ALL for Me.

This is where the World Race comes in! …. I had signed up for the World RACE a while back and was so pumped about it, but then as time passed by, I started doubting that God would provide all my needs and my calling to the nations and also started making all kinds of excuses of why I should not go…  I quickly learned that UNBELIEF stops stuff from happening. I needed a reminder that God never intended for me or you to live in poverty in any area of our lives.  The Bible is full of promises of God's provision for His people.  Solomon said, "I have been young and now I am old, yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken or his descendants begging bread" (Prov 37:25).  My Dad HAS PLENTY for EVERYONE!  

All this to say that in 9 months I will be giving birth… I mean… I will be going to THE WORLD RACE in JULY 2013!!!!!) woohoo!   {PRAYERS WANTED}  

THIS TIME IS FOR REAL!!! 

I'm not a writer and I'm really not sure if this makes any sense, but I pray that this touches your heart in some way or another…