lol I love the way God works. The last little while I have been feelin a bit down-and by that I mean just sorta blah. I love to blame those kinds of moods on the weather, but I knew that it was more than that. I started school, which is great. Working about 5 shifts a week which is awesome. But other than that, not much going on. Haven’t had time for friends lately-with serving you work a lot of Friday and Saturday nights-just kind of comes with the job and I have gotten used to it over the years. I also haven’t had time for God. Let me rephrase, I haven’t made time for God. There are so many things I have done, especially with preparing for the race, that I have not come before God on. I hate that. I realize after I have taken a few bites of lunch that I didn’t praise God for the food. Or when looking for a way us Canadians can get tax receipts issued to our donors, I am not praying constantly for him to show me the way (praise God that Mark wants to get on top of that ASAP). And really, haven’t done much at all with my time. Always tired, always thinking I should do this or that but really not doing anything! Frustrating!
So tonight, after work and hangin out with my dad, I trudged downstairs to check the email and I had an email from a friend of mine through school. Let’s just say I was crying by the time I finished reading her email. She was so incredibly encouraging and I felt like God was using her to make me really hear the words he is always telling me, such as He loves me, I have gone through all the heartbreak and dark times so that I can connect with others, He is going to use me for whatever it is He has in store, and that I am meant to go on this trip.
The trip has really sunk in the last few weeks. I have been doubting that I am supposed to be on this trip. For example, our training in Georgia is from April 5-15. Well my last day of classes are April 2 and then exams begin. For whatever reason, I thought that this was going to be difficult. However, it’s not lol Hence, why I love the way God works. He knows exactly how I feel. He knows that I am worried and anxious. He knows I am holding back. But after reading this email, I was left with asking myself why? Why am I so scared when I know in my heart that God loves me? Why do I want to stay in this comfort zone? Why would I close the door on an amazing opportunity that God has called me to open?
I know that there are going to be tough times before the trip and hard times while on the trip, but the words written by this amazing girl just really touched me. She inspired me to get excited again about what it is that us World Racers will be doing and reminded me that we need God every step of the way.
