How many of you out there know that there are blessings in your obedience?
I knew this for a long time, but I am in this season of really beginning to know this. In the last month I have been blown away by the blessings in my obedience.
Do you want to know a secret? I did not want to obey. See the Lord was calling be back to Georgia after a summer away leading mission trips for youth groups. I thought my time in the small town of Gainesville was over. I thought I was going to get to move back to Florida. I thought I was going to get to walk into a season of having my own room.
I did not want to go back to Georgia.
But the Lord had different plans. He has told me from the beginning that he has had more for me in Georgia. So I sent the final emails confirming I would be returning in September to finish CGA.
From the moment I walked off the plane,and received the biggest hug from one of my housemates, I have felt the blessing of my obedience. I have watched the Lord bring amazing people and opportunities my way. I have felt his presence so thick in every area of my life.
My first week back was spent getting ready for the new CGA participants to show up. Since I would be the only returning participant to Gainesville, I would participating in all their activities with them. This included their 4 day hiking/ camping trip.
I did NOT want to go.
That is putting it mildly. I was terrified. I tried EVERYTHING to get out of it. Deep down though, I knew the Lord had spoken the word “go”.
So I went.
I hated pretty much every minute of it. The first day we hiked 10 miles in 10 hours. We lived in tents, slept under a tarp, had a “free” day to sit in the woods and do whatever we wanted. I just wanted to leave. As dramatic as this sounds, it was a traumatizing trip for me.
Everyone said I should feel accomplished for what I had completed. I did not feel this way. I just felt angry at those who made me go and at God.
After talking to several people, I have begun processing what actually went on during those 4 days. It has not been an easy process. But I think I am at a point where I can say that I would not have changed it.
The Lord has shown me so much because I went on this trip. There are major blessings in this event, even though in the moment I did not want to be in it.
If I could ask you to do anything it would be to obey, even when everything in you does not want to do it. The blessings far outweigh the discomfort of the action.
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