“The anger is going to take a while, like layers of an onion”
Even from thousands of miles away Jennifer can still speak words of wisdom into my situation. You see for the last few weeks I have found myself angry at a situation that I thought was taken care of a long time ago.
Without going into much detail, I had an unexpected blast from the past happen right after I returned home from the camping trip. I was already emotionally, physically, and mentally drained from the trip. I had nothing else to give in the moments I read the message. Well, at least that is what I thought.
But it was in that moment that the anger set in.
I was surprised to see it there. I thought I had let it all go. But there it was like a monster trying to rip its way from the inside out. I have spent the last few weeks trying my hardest to keep it in. I failed miserably at it one day last week. That day I lashed out at the person I wasn’t even going to talk to.
I have tried to ask God why the anger is back. I have asked what I need to learn from this. I have begged for this to really and truly be over. I have told Him that I don’t want to be angry at Him that this is back in my life. His answer is simple:
“I love you. I want to take you someplace new, someplace deeper. Trust me.”
So I find myself in this waiting game with God. I know He will win, He always does. If you will join me in prayer over this situation I would greatly appreciate it. Now excuse me while I go learn some anger management.
