This is a prayer I journaled today, although I wrote it with no intention of sharing, the Lord called me into vulnerability.
Hey God. You are good. Woah. I know that because I’ve read about your love. I’ve experienced you more times than I can count. I hear my team, my squad, my leaders talk about your goodness. Lord I know you are good, but Lord I am not sure I am seeing you right now. I am craving to hear you speak, my eyes are open, my mind is focused, my heart is ready, but please tell me… is my soul ready also? I feel like I am doing everything right… why is it still so silent? I feel like I’m ready. I’ve learned time after time that my feelings mean nothing. That’s hard for me. I’m frustrated with people. I’m overwhelmed with what life may look like the next 9 months. I feel lazy, and unmotivated. Lord I am feeling a lot of things. I know you are greater than these feelings, greater than my comforts, Lord fill me with your truth. Lead me to where you need me to look. In this moment, I am making the choice to trust you. Trust you with relationships, trust you with my future. Put the children in front of me whom I need to love, and give me the heart to love them well. Put the fire under my feet that I need in order to find ministry opportunities. Wisdom. Give me wisdom, allow me to seek wisdom when it is hardest. Open my eyes to see what this key means, and why it fell into my lap. Lord thank you for putting me here. Thank you for knowing me best and chasing after me passionately. Thank you for never failing, or forsaking me. Thank you for this life. I love you. In Jesus’ name. Amen & amen.
This past week has been far greater than I could have asked for. Ministry this week was helping doing admin work, and manual labor around the property at Hope for the DR. This place is slowly becoming home and I ask that you join me in prayer, that we will be able to lead well, and be the hands and feet of Jesus in every way possible. I will forever be thankful for each and every one of you & the support you all bring. Shoot me a message, I want to talk to you more about my trip thus far, and all the Lord has been doing.
With love, Kara.
