In the last month, I have experienced gut-wrenching pain.
My soul, my spirit, and the entirety of my being has felt like falling into the depths of the earth and never coming back.
I have been lied to, I have felt betrayed.
I have learned about the kind of forgiveness that can only be described as aggressive forgiveness.
I have learned more about love than I ever thought imaginable.
I have seen that the devil truly is in the details.
He is like a lion, waiting to devour.
I have been picked up by my Jesus over and over again.
And when I feel like I can't even breathe,
He breathes on me and I feel like I'm flying.
Every day is a roller coaster.
But I am learning to rejoice.
I memorized the first chapter of James awhile ago, but until now, I never knew how hard it can be to "count it all joy when you meet trials."
Steadfastness is building in me.
The darkness in the depths of my heart is being revealed.
How I feel needs to depend solely on Jesus.
Forgiveness and joy has little to do with the circumstances around you and much to do with the state of your heart.
In the midst of all of this, I know I am being prepared for the next year of my life.
The great architect of my soul is reworking my heart for His glory.
And if pain is what it takes to mold me in the potter's hand, then I will be joyful.
Because in the end, His glory is more important than anything else.
Anyway, (on a not so depressing note) my TWENTY FIRST birthday is coming up on April 12th.
And for the month of April, I am asking every single person I know to donate $21 for my 21st birthday. So if you know me, or even if you don't, please consider checking out the support me tab and donating $21. If 190 people decide to do this, then I can officially launch in July. Let's make this growing girl's dreams come true!
