(PART 2)
One night as we were all worshiping two adults had come up to me and started telling me how great God was working in me and that I was going to help and touch so many people. Well I kept thinking, people dont usually come up and say all of these nice things in this fashion to me.
SO after they were done talking I was thinking:
Uhhh. Should. we. Hug. this. out… errrr shake hands, smile, nod?!?!? Lol I had no idea what to do.
Uhhh. Should. we. Hug. this. out… errrr shake hands, smile, nod?!?!? Lol I had no idea what to do.
I actually kept thinking very skeptical, thoughts like : Well I did talk to some of the staff about how I was feeling about the trip and how I was confused… maybe people are just coming up to me to be nice and encourage me.
All of a Sudden it dawned on me….
WHAT IF GOD WAS TRYING TO CONFIRM IN ME THAT I SHOULD GO. WHAT IF THESE PEOPLE WERE GIVING ME THE SIGN I WAS ASKING FOR AND I WASN’T PAYING ATTENTION!!!!!!!!!
I instantly started to pray and I prayed to God saying Lord, Peter denied you three times and I have done it twice. Please Lord if this is the sign you are giving me PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE have just one more person come up to me tonight. Please God Please!!! (also at the end I kindof threw in there, that whoever would come up to me, make it be someone I don’t know or haven’t talk to about how I was feeling)
I don’t really know how long I was praying for but I WAS praying hard and I know I was standing completely still in the middle of everyone around me jumping, dancing, singing and worshipping.
As I finally opened my eyes Jen another one of the staff was standing in front of me with her hands stretched out over me! She said “Keep going” and then started to say things like the other two people had said when they came up to me! I instantly hugged her and started to cry. I couldn’t quite believe that , I , Kara Graham, had just asked God for a specific sign and HE granted it!!! ARE YOU SERIOUS!
I dropped to my knees and started to thank God for answering my prayer…. Again though, skepticism set in. I thought for just a moment: welllllll I had already talk to Jen about how I was feeling and so maybe that shouldn’t REALLY count…. Immediately I thought, DON’T TEMPT GOD!!!
Well I think God wanted to say “Really Kara? REALLY? I just answered your prayer and you continue to doubt what I do….FINE here you go!!!!!!”
God sent 3 more people to come up to me that night!!!!!
INSANE SIX… SIX PEOPLE!!
Even after the night was over I continued to be a little skeptical! (Can you believe that!) So I went up to Jeff, a friend on the World Race, who is actually Catholic as well and we knew each other prior to this trip. I asked him if anyone came up to him tonight (we both were experiencing some of the same challenges)… He said Nope, No one!!!
Through ALL of my doubts God continued to show up and basically give me a little smack in the face and make me realize that, This IS where God wants me to be. I may not know what I desire to know but God is going to push me on my faith journey. God is going to teach me to rely on Him and He is going to continue to ask me to listen to me.
GOD CONFIRMED THE CALL
LOVE!
