A little long.. Sorry, but God transformed me this week… I will post pics when i have the chance. : )
Just in case you are not aware, at the end of every month my squad has a “Debrief.” It is a time of relaxation and ministry to us as individuals. This month was a little different because the organization we are with held a conference in Brasov, Romania. Every squad on the field (4 squads, about 200 people) , alumni and AIM staff would all be attending the conference.. This debrief did not sound relaxing at all, In fact I was not looking foward to it and did not have any desire for our squad to have to mingle with 3 other squads.
We arrived at the conference location on Monday night, set up our tents and woke up on Tuesday for the first session. As soon as I woke up that morning I felt a weight on me that was not there before, I did not know what was wrong with me. It felt like I was about to go into a depression or something and I had no clue why. I even started to give into the lies of the enemy and doubt my relationship with God. All I knew to do was pray, I wanted more of Him and more of His spirit. I was so sick of feeling a heaviness on me and I knew I needed to pray through it and seek His face. So I started praying, asking God to fill me again with His Holy Spirit and to just reveal Himself to me in a way that I had never experienced.
Thursday morning my teammate Kristen and some of my squad members were leading the worship service, so I took a front row seat and began to worship with all of my heart. In this time the Lords presence became so thick and He began to speak to me saying ” It’s time to get serious for good, Kara.” In this moment some of my weight was lifted, but I still did not feel whole. I left the worship service and later that day my team had a meeting with our coaches and squad leaders for a time of prayer and prophecy. IT WAS AMAZING… and some of the weight was also lifted there… But it was still not gone…
That night after our 2nd worship service they had a time of prayer for people that wanted a new filling of the Holy Spirit.. I immediately stood up and had my squad leader Ashley Musick pray over me. The words she spoke were words of truth and I believe straight from the mouth of God and my spirit was in agreement. I can’t really explain what happened next because it was to amazing for words. All I know is that I have never felt Gods love and goodness more than I did in that moment. I was shaking, praising Him, and crying all at the same time.” I even got up and declared His goodness to everyone… I am now better than ever, on fire and ready to finish this race strong and full of His Spirit.
The one thing I could not stop saying on Thursday night is that “HE IS GOOD” and I dont know how I let myself forget that. HE IS ALWAYS GOOD!! In the desert and out of the desert… He had me in the desert to teach me things.. I doubted and look, HE STILL BROUGHT ME OUT! In His timing… All it takes itsrealizing you need more of Him and pressing IN. HE IS FAITHFUL and There is freedom in Jesus!
WHERE THE SPIRT OF THE LORD IS THERE IS FREEDOM
2 COR 3:17
