Today the whole group left Canaan to go do some ministry at the hospital in St.Mark. I walked in the hospital to find many people with serious illness laying in beds side by side with flys covering them. Immediately upon arrival our teams along with our translators seperated into groups of about 3 or 4 and began to just talk to the people and pray for them.
Myself along with Liz and Jenny walked into a room with our translator and began to try and figure out who the Lord was wanting us to pray with. My attention was immediately drawn to the corner of the room where it looked like a young boy about 7 or 8 years old was just balled up on his bed. The girls and I walked over to where the boy was, but he would not speak. The man in the bed beside him began to tell us how this boy was 20 years old and he had been mute for 10 years. He was alert and it was obvious he could hear us because he paid attention to us, but he would not speak. Noone could seem to tell us what his medical condition was because they said they did not know. The three of us prayed over the young man, but I felt like the Lord was telling me to pray over him again exposing the enemy and so I began to pray against strongholds that the enemy had on his life…. I know nothing about this boy besides the fact that he is a 20 year old man that is the size of a 7 year old, who has not spoken in 10 years and both of his parents have passed for some unknown reason. Although I dont know much about him, I do know one things for sure…. He is in a strong spiritual battle, and the enemy has stolen so much from him. He is a child of the most high king and it makes me sick to think that the enemy has been able to oppress him for so long. As we walked out of the hospital I couldnt help but ask myself all kinds of questions, what am I doing wrong? Do I not have enough faith? Why cant that boy just be healed? The truth is, It is not about me… Just because I didn’t see some miraculous breakthrough in this boys life does not mean that God is not at work in Him, The Lord is way bigger than I am and He does not owe me any explanation as to how he operates and He is not required to show us fruit. It is not for our glory, Its for His. He just allows us to be apart of it and to stand in the gap.
The father says “If you ask anything in my sons name it shall be given to you.”
So I fully believe that the Lord is at work in healing each of these people. True healing comes from the inside out and actually seeing inner healing is something we as humans will never be able to witness. Although there may be some physical pain, I myself am not to say what the Lord may be trying to teach them through the pain and suffering. The Lords ways are bigger and better than anything I can imagine and I have come to learn that just because you feel uncomfortable does not mean it is not Him. So from now on I leave my expectations at the door and I let God work how He wants to work and I do my job, which is stand in the gap.. It is not our job to see the fruit.
Romans 8:18-21
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.
