While I worshiped God this morning, I found myself praying for God to
break my heart and to make me whole. Yes, I believe those to things go
hand in hand. Sadly, I know that there is already so much pain in my
fractured soul that I need healing so that my heart can break for the
things that break God’s heart. God wants to take us into the thick of
our pain so that we can have freedom. He wants us to cast our burdens
on him. How do we do that? For me, I have to let the pain wash over and
overwhelm me and trust that God can bring me through it. Wholeness
awaits me on the other side of my pain. Grieving is a process they
showed us at camp. I have experienced much pain in my life and always
wanted to get as far away from it as fast as I could. At camp, grieving consisted of inviting God to show us what we needed to grieve and asking him to help us go wherever we needed no matter how painful. The moments are excruciating at times. Going back through time and space to experience all over again things we wish to forget. After the tears, there is relief. There is freedom. My new motto is
embrace the pain. I don’t want to sound flip. It is not an easy choice,
but I know and have experienced the healing and freedom that God
intended for each of us. Ask God if there is anything you need to grieve. Ask him to bring you to the other side of you pain. He stands ready for everything you got! Lay it on him.
