The time between training camp and launch is the perfect opportunity for enemy to sneak in and unravel us. Our lives are full of things that need to be done, people to say goodbye to and lose ends that need to be tied up. One little thing built on top of another little thing eventually adds up to a whole lot of weight that can weigh us down. I can’t speak for the other people on my squad, but I know for me that it can feel like I have a weight that I am left to bare alone and even, God (yes I said God) is not there to help me lift. Now you who are reading may feel your spirit leaping to say “but God is always with you!” Of course we know that is true. But there are moments when we are under such immense weight that we succumb to our human thoughts that tell us we are alone, that we have been abandoned, and we begin to doubt God’s love and provision over us. Have you ever been there? Have you ever been in a place where as much as you knew in your spirit all the truths about God, some how your flesh overpowered your spirit and you…doubted God? For those who can’t relate, this is not for you. But for many of you who are reading this, you understand. You have been there. You hold your head in shame because you lacked faith, you didn’t hold strong. You stumbled…yet…yet you are still here, swinging the sword, pushing on. Your faith did not die out. In fact you are stronger even now than you were before. Don’t hold your head in shame for your moment of weakness, for it is in your weakness that He is made strong in you. A good friend reminded me of this today. A friend that I met in Haiti the first time I went. Her name is Melissa. We became better friends the second time I went back to Haiti, with her. Melissa reminded me of how she has been in places of defeat, and I was there to bless and encourage her. That I was not alone in being in such a place. She reminded me of how God has been using me to bless people and that He has great plans for my life. She reminded me that when God is in the process of using us for great things for the sake of his kingdom, that is when the enemy attacks with the most zeal. She reminded me that I may stumble for a moment, but that does not determine who I am. Who I am is determined by whom I belong to. And I belong to the Most High God! I belong to him because he chose me, not because I was faithful to choose him. When I was done talking to my friend Melissa, it was a torrential downpour outside. I decided that it would be fun to dance in the rain the way I did with my friend when I was a teenager. So I danced and my heart felt at peace. And when the rain had stopped, there left in its place was a double rainbow, reminding me of all God’s promises.
I challenge you today, if life is weighing you down and you feel alone in bearing all that needs to be done…Go, dance in the rain and remember….
It’s Ok to not be Ok!
When you stumble, God will pick you up!
