Wow! Sorry, it’s been awhile!! I just want to start this blog by thanking the Lord for what He has done in my life over the past year. Gap Year changed my life forever! I’m so thankful for the family that it provided me with and all the things I got to be a witness to. Thanks God.
I am currently living in a tent in the Georgia woods! I decided to participate in a another Gap Year as an Alumni Team Leader, which basically means I am leading a team of four awesome men! My role is to help establish a community, love these men, and disciple them. I am honored that the Lord blessed me with a team that is so specific to my needs in this season! The Lord is teaching me a lot about who I am, who He is, and His intentions for me! I’m learning what it looks like to be loved and be held. God has really reminded me of where I truly get my strength.
The Lord has really redefined what a man is in my heart. Over the past year, the Lord had already taught me what it looks like to be a Man of God, but what does it truly look like? For most of my life, I believed that a man was supposed to be the provider, protector, and money maker. That is very far from the truth, man was made to be wild! Look at Sampson for example, a man of the Lord with tremendous strength and courage! He didn’t have any of those things without the Lord, without the Lord he was nothing.. I’m learning what it looks like to rely on the Lord fully, I thought I relied on the Lord when I got here, but I quickly realized that I didn’t fully rely on him. I had to learn what it looked like to lead and love out of a place of being led and loved by my Father. I’ve learned what it looks like to fight for my rest with God and what it means to truly sabbath, so I can pour out from a place of being fully filled. Men in today’s society are limited to three emotions, happy, sad, and mad. Why aren’t there more emotional men in the world? If we could imagine our life like driving a car, why do we give emotions the keys? It’s okay to feel emotions, it’s okay to have emotions, but it’s not okay for emotions to become the driving force in our lives. Emotions need to be felt, they are necessary. I never expected to come into a season of leadership and be led so much by the men that I’m leading. The Lord is taking me through a season of tremendous growth in myself. He’s showing me areas of my life that I need to grow in.
I’m so thankful for what the Lord is doing here and what he is going to continue to do in the coming months! Thank you for all of your support!
