Who remembers the ViewMaster? That beloved toy that allowed you to click through several images revealing the story of your favorite Disney Character. Mine was red like the one pictured below and I absolutely loved it.
Lately I find myself wanting to freeze moments in time. I want to capture them and put them in the ViewMaster of my life. I want to hoard them like precious gifts, because that is what they are. They include watching my best friend get married, Isabel and I laughing until we cry, and countless other snippets of time that I want to freeze. In those moments I am paralyzed because of the joy I’m experiencing but also the reality of what is to come. My eyes fill with tears and I am overwhelmed by the weight of leaving. I quickly shake the feeling so I can go back to experiencing the joy but I’m left feeling heavy. The past few weeks have felt heavy. I feel heavy with emotions. I’m trying to navigate through all of them but some days I just want to click through all of the moments I’ve frozen. Like the one where I’m eating dinner with my family around the table and sharing our high points for the day. Or the one where I’m holding my dad’s hand while watching the scary part in a movie. The reality is I am not ready to say goodbye. I am not ready to let go.
I know God has huge plans for me this next year. He has so many more moments and stories to fill my ViewMaster with. This is His plan, the one He intended all along. He is good and no matter how much I want to stay in my warm cozy bed clicking through the memories, He wants more for me. He has more for me. I can’t be afraid to chase after Him.
