This week has been a tough one. Being back home has been great but the enemy has decided to come back swinging after a great week of Training Camp. I promise a blog is coming soon on that but in the mean time I wanted to be transparent. I want to invite you in to the struggle of this past week.
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy” says John 10:10. That is exactly what the devil has been doing this week. He was on a mission to distract and pull me back in to the darkness. After the wonderful live giving week of Training Camp I can understand why he would feel threatened. God moved in huge ways, not only in my life but in the lives of those around me. They warned us before we left that the time in between Training Camp and Launch would be the hardest. The devil would try his hardest to lie, plot, scheme, and do whatever he could to convince us that this journey was not for us. I didn’t believe them, but now I do. The strange thing I wasn’t expecting was for the enemy to use people I love and care about to distract me. That is a hard pill to swallow. With that being said I’ve recognized the devil’s plot and I refuse to let him think he’s won. My God is stronger and more powerful than any lie the devil could try and convince me of. “I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full” says the rest of John 10:10. Today I choose to rest in that truth. My God wants me to live a full life. Not one that reminds me of my past, not one that shames me in to my failures, but one that is full of love and truth.
I’m asking that you would continue to pray for peace, comfort, and strength these next couple of weeks. It is hard to be present in this season when I so badly want to be in the next one with my P Squad family. I know God is moving and working in my life but I can’t do this without the love and support from all of you. Thanks for allowing me to be transparent with you. Even as I was writing this I felt like the enemy was saying “no one cares Kalah”, “don’t bother people with your burdens”, “don’t share your struggles”, and “don’t let people see you’re weak.” I’m posting this despite all of those lies.
with love,
Kalah
