Three days ago I flew home from the world race.
Believe me it was not something that I planned on. It was never something I secretly plotted or planned before I left. I had every intention of completing the journey that was set out before me but things change. I spent days crying and praying about what to do. I sought counsel from those whom I love and respect dearly. It was not an easy decision at all.
I wish I could adequately articulate where I was emotionally and spiritually but the only word that seems to suffice is homesick. It was a longing in my soul to be home that I could not explain. After lots of prayer I made the decision to come home. I am completely confident and at peace with this decision. The Lord has been so gracious and tender with me throughout this process and for that I will forever be thankful. He is such a good father and if I’ve learned anything from these past few months, it’s that He is always good. He has been good these past few months and He will continue to be good every single day the rest of my life. He knows the depths of my heart and loves me the same.
As for the next step – I have no idea what that looks like. I have no job, no car, and no idea what tomorrow looks like much less the next few months. For now I am resting, processing the last few months, and processing my recent decision to leave. I know many of you will have questions and I’d love to answer them. But please be gracious with me as I’m still trying to figure out some of the answers myself.
To all my supporters, thank you for praying, giving financially, and encouraging me throughout this process. I still need your prayers as I try to figure out what God has next. For those of you who donated, the money you gave will still be used to further the Kingdom through missions. So thank you.
A wise woman told me this “Remember that nothing is wasted. This experience will not be any different because you left early. Remember this also …. God saves us by grace so that we can live by grace. Give yourself grace.” I plan on taking her advice as I enter this unknown and unexpected change of plans.
