Everywhere we go, we stand out. People know we are not Colombian and they figure out pretty quickly that we are American. We can’t help our accents or the way we look. The one attribute that most of the Colombians seem to comment on are our eyes. Almost all of us have light colored eyes that are very hard to come by in this country. In the US, we are used to seeing people whose eyes are all different shades of browns, greens, or blues but in Colombian, nearly everyone has dark brown eyes. It seems that aside from all of our other identifying characteristics, our eyes distinguish us the most as foreigners.
It is remarkable how much our eyes reveal about us. They seem to be able to communicate in a way all their own. Often times people’s emotions can be distinguished just by their eyes- people in books are often described as having cold eyes or a piercing stare. There is something about the eyes that seem like a portal into a person’s soul. There is something incredibly powerful about making eye contact with someone. It feels as though you are making a connection with that person that allows both of you to enter into a deeper conversation that involves the soul. As people look into my green eyes and I into theirs, I cannot help but wonder, what have these eyes seen? Have they seen heartbreak and despair? Have they seen happiness and joy? Have they seen people who were hurting and just walked by or did they stop to help? Have they seen the grace and mercy of the Lord in their own lives or the lives of others? Have they seen things they are much too young to have seen?
As I thought about this, I started to wonder what it would be like to look into the eyes of Jesus. It would be incredible to have that sense of connection with Jesus, to look into His eyes and ponder all the things those eyes have seen. Then I got to thinking, what would Jesus see in my eyes? What would He see if He looked into my soul?
This is a scary question because I know I have fallen short. I know that I haven’t lived up to the commandments in the Bible. I know that He will see my questions and doubts. He’ll see the deepest, darkest, depths of my life. Will He still want to know me if He can see into my soul?
The answer is absolutely without a doubt, YES.
Why? Because He already knows all of these things about me. He already knows the deepest, darkest, depths of my heart and He loves me anyway. Jesus sees me for who I truly am every single day and He loves me more than I could ever fathom. I don’t know how I’ll react when I meet Jesus in Heaven but I hope that at some point, I get to look into his eyes (which I imagine to be a lovely shade of electric blue) and feel that amazing connection with Him. I’m not afraid because He already knows the depths of my soul and everything my green eyes have seen but He loves me anyway.
