Am I great because I am a missionary? Am I great because I want to live overseas and rescue children from the sex trade? Or because of the number of people I evangelize to? Or the amount of time I spend in the Word of God? Or am I great because of the God who lives in me?
Yeah, that last one is the right answer. I am great because God is great! In fact, nothing about is really all that special. I am human, imperfect, and flawed. I sin daily and have a million areas of needed growth in my life. Therefore, my worth and value cannot be found in who I am or the passions I have. My value is weighted against the cross of Jesus Christ. He alone gives me value. He alone has made me great!
I am going to proclaim a few things over myself (and you can do the same for yourself if you would like): The country I live in, my current and future mission, my talents, possessions, passions, appearance, and all the acts of service I perform DO NOT DEFINE ME. My definition can only be described by the holes in the hands and feet of my brother Jesus Christ.
I frequently wonder and ask the Lord what He is going to “use me for”. I ask, hoping and expecting that He will tell me something really great. I think to myself, “I will know just how much He loves me by the task He gives me. If He entrusts me with much, then I am great, and He really loves me”. What a lie Satan has tried to tell me, to get me to be a Martha instead of a Mary. Jesus said in Luke 10:41: “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her”.
The truth is that my “mission” doesn’t really matter. What matters is if I am rushing to the feet of Jesus, knees on the floor, with my heart pounding in my chest. If I am doing that, then I will serve my Maker out of passion, not out of approval.
I have always told myself that I would have a “radical purpose”. But what if that radical purpose it to love people like they have never been loved before, or to be an empowering wife and mother, or to teach others how to go forth into the nations. As much potential as I think I may have to do greatness, I have nothing. I have only what is given to me, and I want/ need nothing more than what He is handing me.
I am not “too good” for any mission. I am great because He is great, and has shared His greatness with me! He desires relationship with me above all else: He wants me to know Him, love Him, and enjoy Him. This is what God revealed to me during my quiet time this morning… Just thought I’d let you in because I feel that someone needs to hear the same words.
Love you brothers and sisters!
Kaitlyn
