Back at our 4-Month Squad Debrief on Pangkor Island, Malaysia, we had an Anointing Tunnel that we all went through the last night we were there. I was at first a little unsure of what to think about it, but after that second of “unsureness” passed I was all in. We were asked to ask God for a Spirit of something that we wanted and to then to go through a tunnel that the leaders all made.
I started off in prayer and not really sure of what I wanted to ask God for. However, after thinking for a couple of minutes and of what would best help me in furthering the Kingdom, I wanted a Spirit of Confidence. I wanted to be bold and to be confident in what I was saying and preaching. I want to go onto a “stage” and have belief in myself of what I am saying. I want to not stumble over my words and I want to know that what I am saying is coming from God’s voice.
When I started through the tunnel, I went to our squad coordinator, Tim Fizzel, and one of the squad leaders, Steven Gnerlich, first. They both just started praying and Tim prayed for me to receive gifts from God. They would be like gifts that it would be like Christmas Day and that I would have that excitement receiving them. I did not really understand this prayer because all I wanted was to receive a Spirit of Confidence, that’s what I was expecting to happen as I went through this tunnel.
Next I went to Melina Orengo, original squad leader, and Lizi Clem, new squad leader. As they were praying, Melina saw a picture of a dandelion, when it is the one that you blow the seeds away and is a big puffball. She said that I was like the dandelion, I am so joyful to go wherever the Spirit leads me. I am spreading joy and childlikeness faith around wherever I go. People need to have God’s joy and childlike faith and that is why I am being blown around: to reach others and to spread Papa’s joy. However, I have been suppressing my joy around others, but I was told to release it because others need it.
Lizi went on to pray about how I bring God joy and my need to trust Him.
I went on to Selena Day, our female coach, and Joel Dutton, our other original squad leader. Selena asked me what I wanted to receive a Spirit of. My first response was, “I don’t know.” Why did I say I didn’t know? I went in wanting a Spirit of Confidence. Well, I was not very confident in my answer right there. I immediately replied with “A Spirit of Confidence. I want to know I am following God’s voice, to follow where He leads, and to know Him more.”
They laid hands on me and started praying for me to receive that from God. Selena then said to me, “I heard Him say that you already know His voice.” Selena and Joel started to give me advice on how to hear God’s voice better and how to discern Him. I am going to have to take risks.
I know I hear my Abba’s voice. I just need to respond in obedience to what He says. That is the hard part, but worth the risk and the dying to myself.
Selena and Joel told me ways I know it is God talking to me is when it is the first thing that I hear, when I start to doubt and fight against what is being said. This is because it is going against all of my flesh. I want to do what my flesh wants a lot of days and not follow in obedience to what God is telling me.
After receiving this information, Selena asked if I wanted to receive the gift of speaking in tongues.
Yes, please.
I have never told anyone that I wanted to be able to speak in tongues. I have wanted to because I want to have a deeper relationship with the Spirit. I don’t know what it means to speak to have this new gift and what my relationship with the Spirit will be like, but I want it.
So after praying to receive and receive, I did not receive. I was told to not stop asking.
God, I want to receive the gift of speaking in tongues. I want to talk to You and have a different and more intimate relationship with You.
After the tunnel and reaching the end, I walked up to Alyssa Reilly, our other squad leader. She anointed my head and my feet with oil. I am an anointed daughter of the King. I walk where angels have walked. I walk on high ground.
Prayers: My teammates, Chip Carnes, Michael Clevenger and Ga’Nene Edwards, need some financial help to stay on the Race. They are each around $4,000 away from the last and final deadline. If you are interested in helping them meet this deadline (and having an end of year tax deductible gift), please check out their blogs (chipcarnes.theworldrace.org, michaelclevenger.theworldrace.org and ganeneedwards.theworldrace.org) and click on the Support Me! tab to support them financially.
Pray for Chip Carnes’ leg. The story is that he was born with a leg shorter than the other. This has caused a lot of bodily pain and different situations over the years. Anyways, the story now is that he is ready to receive God’s healing and extended growth of his leg. We have seen and heard of stories of God growing someone’s leg right in front of their eyes, and we are ready to see a miracle in our own brother’s life.
Please pray for the ministry in Kampong Cham and for our contact, Maricel. She is one of very few believers in this community and she needs some encouragement and a family of believers where she can grow in her faith.
I need help in walking through life believing that I have a heart of daughtership and not as a heart of an orphan. I am not an orphan, I have been redeemed and am a daughter of the King. I need to believe it, not just have knowledge.
Thank you all for your love and support. Thank you for all of your blessings and prayers. I am so thankful for each one of you.
Love, Kaitlyn Michele
