Writing an About me section is such a struggle….but here goes nothing!
I graduated high school in May of 2014 and am currently taking online classes.
I work full time at an accounting firm that is absolutely incredible. I love my job and want to work towards becoming a CPA.
Family, oh family. I am the second youngest of 7 kids. Yes, fully related, all of us are from the same two parents. I have three brothers and three sisters.
I also grew up playing sports, so I love anything athletic. Watch out though, cause I get super competitive.
Oh, and Jesus is this pretty amazing guy that flipped my world upside down. No big deal or anything. Kidding! It has been a huge deal!
While I grew up in church and was “saved” at a young age, It was a whole lot more religion than it was anything to do about a relationship. I was really saved in 8th grade, however, Due to some family circumstances then, I went all types of haywire.
I struggled with depression and self-worth and questioned God’s character. By the end of middle school I found myself no longer wanting to live, but unable to do anything about it. So I buried the feelings(what I do best) and turned into my rebellious days. My first three years of high school basically consisted of me going back and forth with God. Trying to push him away by drinking, swearing, cheating on test, and anything else I could think of. But also going through discipleship and reading through the entire bible. Like I said, I was all over the place.
Senior year came around and I couldn’t believe I was still alive. The depression refused to stay buried any longer and it came out attacking my entire life. By the end of the semester I was in a psychiatric hospital with severe depression.
I hit rock bottom. I was completely broken, alone laying in the bottom of my pit. I felt completely abandoned except for one still small voice. My Jesus was whispering to me, asking me to let him take control. So I did. Because I had no other hope. I was literally in a spot that I had two options. Either Kill myself right there and then, or give everything to Jesus and see where he takes me.
As I look back now over those 5 years, I see so much of how God was working in my life. He is incredible, is he not? Even when I was running, He was pointing me back to Him. Never once did the Lord give up on me. So here I find myself, 14 months later from making the choice to give all of my brokenness to God.
He is an absolute healer and restorer. He has taken the shattered pieces and made my life somehow beautiful again. Has it been easy for me? Heck no. It has been the hardest journey of my life. But it has also been an incredible journey.
I am finding myself actually having a normal relationship with my dad. One I wrote off years ago from ever happening.
I have grown incredibly deep friendships by allowing myself to be vulnerable.
There is so much God has done and provided me that I could write a book about it. But, here is the summary of my life:
Without God, I have no reason to live or enjoy life.
With God, I have every reason to live and enjoy life.
