Today is June 17th, I have 15 days to raise $9,000. Right now I have about $1,600. I found myself broken two nights ago when reality hit me. Fundraising is hard and I HAVE NO CONTROL of this situation.
The thought of not going on the World Race Gap Year breaks my heart. God has called me to something greater, He has called me to be His feet. Don’t get me wrong, the Lord does not need me and His work will be done with or without me but I know that He has invited me to join in this journey with him.
I can’t do this alone, financially or emotionally. As many of you know (most of the time) I wear my emotions on my sleeves. Since I have decided to go on the race things have not been easy. Fundraising is hard, Satan is attacking, and life is still happening. I NEED PRAYER. I need a strong group of people praying with me. Pray for fundraising, even if you cant give. Pray for the people I will meet, even though you will not meet them. Pray for the preparation of my heart. Prayer is so powerful. God bridged the gap and has provided us a way to speak to Him. He wants to hear our prayers. Financially, I am selling bracelets and t-shirts (or trying to) and I have sent out letters. I hate asking for money, I want to do it on my own and prove that I don’t need other people but I DO. I simply can’t raise this much money without the help of the people around me.
I’m scared. I fear not being able to raise the money I need. I fear being away from the people I love for 9 months. I fear the changes God will make in my life because I know they will be drastic. I fear the changes that I will come home to. I know that God does not want me to fear but that is my imperfect human reaction. Even though I do fear these things, I have FAITH. I have faith that God is greater than any amount of money. I have faith that God will be with the ones I love in my absence. I have faith that He will only change my heart to be more like Him and I will be a better person for that. I have faith that God will prepare my heart for the changes back at home. “Don’t let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game,” is one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite childhood movies. Lately, I’ve been telling myself that over and over again. I will not let the fear of not raising enough money keep me from the calling God has placed on my life. I will work my hardest, pray with all of me and trust more than ever because God will finish the good work he has started in me.
I need your help, prayerfully and financially. I need prayer warriors. I need financial help. So this is my cry for help. This is me setting my pride aside. This is me taking up my cross and admitting that I can’t do this alone. This is me simply asking you for help.
So here are the ways you can help:
Thank you in advance for your love, support and prayer.
With all my love,
Kaitlyn
