I know it has been a couple of weeks since I posted an update and I apologize for that. It has been a crazy couple weeks. For those who don’t know I made the decision to come home a little early. I finished out the month in Cambodia and then when we left the children’s home and drove 3 hours to another part of Cambodia where my team would spend the night before getting on a bus to go into Thailand I got on a plane and began my 30 something hour journey back to America. This decision wasn’t one that was made lightly and a lot of prayer went into this. I did not have a peace about staying and continuing on into Thailand so ultimately I felt like the Lord was leading me back home. I still don’t completely understand why and I have spent a lot of time with the Lord since arriving back home trying to learn and process and figure things out. I still don’t have all the answers and it may be months, or even years before I totally understand why God sent me on a 3 month trip to call me back home a month into it. God taught me a lot through this past month and I am still learning and growing because of it. I wanted to take a couple minutes and share with you all a little of what God has been doing in my life.
1. God has taught me how to truly depend on Him and Him alone. How to trust in the midst of great frustration and homesickness and confusion.
2. God has taught me how to fight my battles. On my knees in prayer, in God’s Word, sitting before Him, just as Nehemiah did before he began building the wall. He sat with the Lord for 4 months before he ever heard from God. I have learned that sometimes I have to just trust and continue to sit with the Lord and to pray intentionally for a while before I ever have an answer from Him.
3. God has been teaching me more about the Holy Spirit. Who He is, how He works, whats truth and what isn’t. In todays modern Christian world there is so much focus on the Holy Spirit and on the spiritual gifts, some is true but some is not. This week I have spent a lot of time studying these topics and even listening to a Secret Church that David Platt did on these topics several years ago.
4. God has drawn me closer to Him through all of this. I have learned how to be more aware of His presence in my everyday life.
Lastly I wanted to say that if anyone has any questions regarding me coming home I will be happy to answer any of those questions so feel free to reach out to me. Thank you for all of the love and support I have already received in coming home. I love everyone and look forward to continuing to share what God has done and is continuing to do in my life because of this trip. I miss each and every one of the 24 children as well as our host, his wife, and her mom and am very grateful for the opportunity I had to get to know each of them this past month.
Saying goodbye to these sweet children was so hard. I miss them all!!
Last beautiful sunset in Cambodia as I boarded the plane to head home! I miss this view every night!
