– Knock Knock!
– Who’s there?
– Not Malaysia, I left that in month 5!
*roaring laughter*
Okay but seriously, where has time gone? I remember thinking that I would never get to this point, and I would always feel like a baby on the world race and here I am in month six, HALFWAY THROUGH THE RACE! Thinking back, I had no idea what it would feel like to be sitting here writing this blog. All I could think about before coming on the race was fundraising. I have this much money to raise. I have a deadline on this date. This fundraiser is on this day. I’m speaking at this church on that day. Etc. It never occurred to me that one day I would be here, three weeks from final deadline, $4,000 short, and not the slightest bit worried.
The thing is, I know that God is good, and He will provide. I also know that He is going to provide in His time. As he has so graciously shown me with the past deadlines, it is not about when I want to be to funded but rather when He feels like it is the perfect timing to fund me in order for me to stretch my faith in Him and not rely on anything but Him. Up until this point I had convinced myself that I was the one making the donations come in. I was the one who was leading my supporters to give. Even that I was the one who was doing the work to receive the donations. BOY WAS I WRONG.
This whole time God has been teaching me that I CAN DO NOTHING WITHOUT HIM. I cannot believe it took me six months of the race to realize that everything that has happened to me has been all according to His plan. I mean, I guess I knew that before too, but I didn’t really fully grasp the whole concept of it. He knows what is going to happen to me tomorrow, in a week, in a month, even in ten seconds. That also means that He knows the exact time that He wants me to be fully funded as well! As much as I want it to be right now, or right away, only He can make that call.
Sometimes I fantasize about what it would be like if someone just wrote a check for $4,000 dollars and said, “here ya go, happy birthday!” But my birthday isn’t for two months and that’s not really how real life works. (chuckles) In real life people have bills, and debt, and other things to spend their money on. Which is also why it makes me even more thankful for every single donation I get, because I know that God had to have put it on your heart to give and to me that is a HUGE blessing!
I have learned to trust God’s timing in my financial status of this race. He hasn’t failed me, and I firmly believe that if he wants me to be here He will provide the necessary funds for me to stay. That being said, I also know that I can’t just sit back and let Him do all the work either. He wants me to put forth effort. So this is me putting forth an effort.
A week ago, sitting in a little cafe having bible study with my team, one of my teammates had some words from the Lord that she said were for me. She told me that God had given her the phrase “ask and you shall receive” to give to me. That night I asked the Lord who He wanted me to talk to and pray for and He gave me a very clear answer. Now the question I have for the Lord is how and when will I be fully funded. The answer He gave me was to wait upon the Lord and to write this blog.
I’m not sure if I wrote everything out perfectly or anything, but it is crystal clear to me that God is going to put it on many hearts that read this blog to donate to me. I know that is a bold statement to make, but it is not from me, it is from the Lord. I feel it in my bones that I will be fully funded sooner than I think. Final deadline is in three weeks and I have $4,000 dollars to raise still. In the Lord’s eyes, that is chump change. He can and will provide that, and you are the providers. I am asking you to take a few minutes out of your day to pray about whether or not you have been called to support me. If you haven’t that’s okay, but if you have PLEASE do not ignore that calling.
You can make donations by clicking the ‘Support Me’ tab underneath my photo on the homepage of my blog! Thank you all so much for every single dollar and prayer thus far! Much love – Kait
