Growing up, I was always known as the athlete. I played soccer, softball, cross country, track, paddling, and yes, even baseball. That was my identity. When I went to college, I turned to academics and my identity was in being a scholar. There were men who were a part of my life over the years and I identified myself in them instead of focusing on who I am.
These are just a few facets of my life. A few areas where I slowly lost my true identity because of what I got caught up in.
I’ve compartmentalized these different sides of myself, molding myself to the different situations and standards that present themselves. I’ve let part of me go in conforming to how society thinks I should act and behave.
I dress and act a certain way in college. I even bring a different set of clothes to school just so I can play my part. I act a certain way around my Christian groups and churches I’m a part of because I feel like I should. I give different vibes to the different groups that I hang out with.
Many of the people I know haven’t seen the other sides of who I am. Not many people in my Christian groups see my business savvy sense, not many people at school see my chill and relaxed side, and the list goes on. I only show the side people expect to see or want to see. I cover up the rest of me.
But the truth is, I’m tired of it.
It’s hard looking in the mirror—seeing myself and what I’m trying to put my worth in. Not embracing who I am. But it’s time for me to embrace my true identity. I’ve taken a bat to that mirror and shattered my old identity. Why you may ask?
Because I’m ready to be me. Simply me.
God has caught my jagged shards and is putting me back together piece by piece.
Who am I?
My name is Ka’ili Taniguchi and I’m a daughter of the Most High King.
This is my identity, and I’m ready to embrace it. Are you?
