Some of the Greatest blessings come from Rejection.
If you would have told me three years ago that I would be divorced, living on my own, going to church every moment that I can, and praying for people on the streets I would have looked at you like you were crazy.
Before I actually knew who God or even who I was, I was living life day to day and miserable. I did not know how miserable I actually was until I became not miserable. I was in a place that I look back now and feel like I was trying be someone I was never meant to be. I searched for love in all the wrong places. I tried to love other people when I did not even love myself.
When my ex husband told me he did not want to be married anymore and wanted a divorce my whole life changed. I never in my life ever experienced that type of pain. That type of rejection. I literally thought my life would be over if I got a divorce. That word divorce was such an ugly word to me. I thought by getting a divorce that was failure. I did not know what to do. So of all things I went to church. That first day I went to church I felt the Holy Spirit. I cried and asked Jesus into my heart.
After about three years walking with the Lord and letting him take me on a journey that I did not even know was possible I have learned to love myself. After my heart shattered on the ground God picked up every single piece and placed it back together better than what it was before it was broken. God has literally healed my heart and is still working on me.
So now looking back I thank my ex husband. I thank him for rejecting me. I thank him for leaving me because it has literally been the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life. I have learned what real love looks like. I have learned to look in the mirror and love myself. I have learned to love others without judgments. I have learned my True identity and how to be comfortable with who I am. I have found my purpose in life.
This life I am living now is so extraordinary. It is amazing and God amazes me with something new everyday. I always was waiting for something to happen in my life and wanting something more. The More is here and I am Ready. I am Ready! I heard the other day from a pastor that “God is ready to use you, but are you ready?” God is always ready for you. He is just waiting for you to be ready. Are you Ready?
“Soak me in your laundry and I’ll come out clean, scrub me and I’ll have a snow-white life. Tune me in to foot-tapping songs, set these once-broken bones to dancing. Don’t look too close for blemishes, give me a clean bill of health. God, make a fresh start in me, shape a Genesis week from chaos in my life. Don’t throw me out with the trash, or fail to breathe holiness in me. Bring me back from gray exile, put a fresh wind in my sails! Give me a job teaching rebels your ways so the lost can find their way home. Commute my death sentence, God, my salvation God, and I’ll sing anthems to your life-giving ways. Unbutton my lips, dear God; I’ll let loose with your praise.” Psalms 51:10 MSG
