Today’s date is July 6th. My current position is sitting in a row of Dulles airport seats. 7 Racers are to my left, 5 behind me, a group of about 15 playing Dutch Blitz or playing music on the floor, 6 diagonal from me cluttered around the only working outlet, and 20 some others spread out all over the airport or are on their way. We leave tonight at 11 p.m. on a 12-hour flight to Qatar, to jump on a flight to Kolkata where we have an 11-hour layover before we finally fly into Hyderabad around 4 p.m. local time on July 8th. From there, we catch a 4-5 hour bus ride to our ministry’s city.
It’s very surreal. Every characteristic of the moment points to reality, yet here I am wondering, “Am I really on the brink of heading to India?” I cannot comprehend where I’ll be standing in the next 48 hours. I just can’t.
The last week was taxing. I had a moment the night before heading to D.C., asking myself, “What the hell am I doing?” (Apologies, but I want you to understand the potency of that moment). Fears, concerns, doubts, questions have all arisen. This year, will I discover that my faith has been a shiny trophy of no real substance all along? When nations literally weep over genocide and people find themselves caged and trapped and children run the streets addicted to glue, what am I bringing to table? I’m not going to lie to you; those few days before DC I really wondered if Jesus is enough. Jesus is enough for me because my life isn’t hard. Is He enough for a people who literally have no hope, where to some every day is literally just a matter of survival? Does He transcend cultures, languages, barriers?
My heart was heavy from the burdensome unknown. My heart is still weary from the strain.
I know that Jesus is enough. He is abundantly more than enough. But the war between my heart and my flesh still rages on, and it’s a constant battle to remind myself of that truth as I think of the month(s) ahead. I’d appreciate your prayers.
Don’t get me wrong. I AM ON MY WAY TO INDIA. It’s still unreal, but the excitement is absolutely there. A little bit is known about my ministry but I’ll wait to confirm what’s okay with them to post before I go ahead and do it right now.
My heart verse for the past days in D.C. (which we were able to see fireworks from the Lincoln Memorial! Swag)..
Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you. For behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and thick darkness the peoples; but the Lord will arise upon you, and His glory will be seen upon you. And nations shall come to your light, and kings to the brightness of your rising.
Isaiah 60:1-3
