It has been a little over 6 months since I’ve been home from The Race. Wow… It seems so distant sometimes. I haven’t even been back the same amount of time I was gone yet. What?!
Well, I wanted to share with everyone how life has been since coming home:
Firstly, I don’t know if y’all know this, but I cannot overstate how grateful I am to anyone who supported this past year, either through prayer or financially. It was the hardest, craziest, most growing year of my life.
Reentry into the U.S. has been strange. Sometimes it feels like I never left, other times… I feel like I’m still ready to load up my pack and jump on another airplane with 38 other crazies. Love my L-Squad family!
Sometimes its hard to be around people, know what I’ve seen and not try to change everything… I feel responsible to do something about every injustice I see. All the misplaced priorities that it’s so easy to have in a country like America. Sometimes I don’t know how to deal with it. It’s hard to talk with anyone either… I’ve never been good at deep conversations through media and I live too far away from any of my family from the Race (aka my squaddies!). So that’s a guilt that I face regularly.
But I do know that I cant take on every little thing, I must choose my fights and understand that I can’t expect things from people who haven’t experienced life away from comforts. Praise God! He’s always good.
I’ve been able to deal with a lot of spiritual issues since the wake up call I received at the end of month 10 of my Race (see my last blog). I’ve noticed that intimacy with the Father has been difficult though. thats most frustrating thing… I have expectations on my shoulders of being “extra spiritual” because of where I’ve been… But I really don’t feel it. but beyond that I just want intimacy with God and it seems impossible to me..
I am currently finishing college right now! I’m going to Spring Arbor University in Michigan, which has been incredible! I love the school and it’s been a great experience so far. My past college experience was full of dropped classes and sub-average grades. I’m proud to say my first semester was one A, three B plus’ and a C+ but it was math so that’s ok with me haha. That’s been an awesome experience so far. Financially it has been a little crazy but God has been SO GOOD! I love it.
Well, that’s my life so far! I’ll try to keep y’all updated. I’d love to go back out there on another missions trip in the near future. If anyone is interested in supporting that, I’ll post any info I get on that as it comes.
I love yall,
all glory to the Father!
