So it was the day before launch and I was getting stressed out. (like a lot!!!) I have been overseas before I kept telling myself. But I kept hearing in my head; this time is different, it’s all new, you don’t know what to expect. I have come to realize that these are good things. Sometimes God has to take you out of your comfort so He can use you more. There is a saying that my Pastor said recently: if you do what you have always done then you will get what you always have, if you want a different result you have to do something different. (I might have worded that a little differently then what he said)
To walk by faith and to follow God’s leading is sometimes full of change and doing things that at one time were uncomfortable. I want to walk Boldly into the future and plan God has for my life.
So I get to the airport in Chicago, get my bag and sit down and chat with a fellow World Racer. Everything is good, I’m chillin and having I good time. I decide that it’s time for me to check into my hotel for the night. So I swing my 46lb. pack onto my back, (not a good idea fyi) ouch! My back starts hurting and I can barely move and bending over was almost impossible. I get to my hotel and I’m dragging my pack a few feet, stopping to catch my breath and go a little farther and repeat. (Thankfully my room was on the first floor) I lay flat on my bed realizing that I must have thrown out my back. I’m in tears wondering how I’m going to do this with all the pain I was feeling. Each day it gets better and less painful, I can bend over more and putting on my shoes is easier now. I never want to experience this again but God it teaching me through this.
Even with all God has shown me through my finances I still rely on my own strength and ability too much. I have a team of 4 Amazing women of God to help support and lift me up. I don’t have to do everything, it proves nothing to do it all alone. God is showing me and teaching me to rely on them and in turn offer my strength as a Women of God to my teammates. It’s a hard lesson to learn and I’m sure I will need reminding sometimes. I know God will remind me when I need it.
For now I’m taking it one step at a time trusting God and the team He has placed me with that the next step is on solid ground.
P.S. I leave for the Dominican Republic on Saturday!!!
