I was having a hard time finding the time to write my next blog. I was trying to be all artsy and show my more poetic side and it was talking longer than I thought it would. Then I realized that as I do like writing you all want to read about me, Julie. Not a perception of who I would like to be but am not yet. I am a real girl trying to find out what it is like to live as a Godly Woman.
I was thinking that my blog had to be perfect so people would read it. But I’m not perfect, I’m a work in progress. Those that know me well know that I can’t spell very well and that I’m a picky eater but I’m always there if you need me. I’m starting to really think about who I am. Not just as a girl trying to be a woman but as a child of God. There are things that God has been speaking into my heart that I have to face and then give over Completely to God.
One major thing that God has been speaking to not only my heart but the people around me is to Trust. To trust Him more not only for the big things but the small ones too, like getting the right taxi that will get me home quickly and be a fun time trying to talk to my driver in my limited Chinese. It’s hard, I always thought that I had a lot of faith. I mean I have been living in China for three years now. But God is challenging my perception of faith and how I view Him.
I feel that to be really ready for this race I need to do some “tune up” work in my own life. I want to be able to hear God speak to me and then do that was spoken, not question it or try to talk myself out of it. But to live truly by faith and trust in God. To know my Father’s, my Lover’s voice and follow it whole heartedly.
“The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song.” Psalm 28:7
