Do you ever put to much stress on what you can or can not do? Well I know I do…and I have to constantly remind myself “Julie it’s not about you it’s about Him.”
The bible even tells us that, in John 3:30 it says “He must increase, but I must decrease.”
I was reading in 1 Corinthians the other day and this passage jumped out at me. “And I, when I came to you, brothers, did not come proclaiming to you the testimony of God with lofty speech or wisdom. For I decided to know nothing among you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. And I was with you in weakness and in fear and much trembling. And my speech and my message were not in plausible words of wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.”
That passage is so powerful to me, especially where I am right now. It was the Spirit of the Living God that has loved me first, given me a love for these girls, and placed it on my heart to even be here in Cambodia. And it’s not the power of Julie that is going to change lives here, it’s through the power of God inside me that will do great things. He get’s all the glory.
When I first came here, my goal was to serve, give, serve some more, and then give some more. And the longer I am here; I realize that a huge part of God bringing my team and I here…was so that we could receive.
Yes, every little girl loves to be told their beautiful, longs for someone to play with their hair, hold their hand, etc. But there is something in humans that longs to give too. To show some one you care and love them and even more so for that person to receive it.
Since I’ve been here…
*I receive candy everyday (sometimes 2 a day) when the girls come back from school.
*I get my hair braided probably every other day
*I get pictures and letters from the girls saying things like “Julie I love You” “Jesus loves you”
*I get told I’m beautiful all throughout the day
*I go over to wash my dishes and one of the little girls runs over to take my dish and wash it (with a smile that is)
*I have little girls filling up my water bottle and bringing it to me at night
There is countless other things these girls do to express love to me.
It’s so overwhelming at times…because I’m thinking “I’m here to serve and give to you” and not that I haven’t but I didn’t expect to receive so much from them.
But that goes back to the whole concept of its not all about me. It’s not always about what I can or can not do. Sometimes all I’m suppose to do is just sit and receive from these girls. And ya know what? That is just as important. Because think about it…due to these girl’s family/lack of family situations…the love that they have tried to give has probably at some points, been neglected and not cherished…
So not only am I here to love on these girls but I’m also here to receive the overflowing love they have/want to give…
