Well y’all I am just 6 short weeks away from training camp!!! As exciting a time as this is its also a time when all of the details start to pop up and for a person who is very big picture: that can get a little overwhelming…okay more like It keeps popping into my mind and I keep pushing it to the back of my mind not wanting to deal with it all.
Vaccinations, doctor appointments (that I haven’t made yet), student loans, gear needs, keeping my car running for four more months, and keeping my eyes locked on Papa God are all running through my head and probably will be until launch…then there will be a new list haha!
I am continually giving myself reasonable goals as I try and navigate these waters…I thought I was used to details from college but y’all, thats so different from ‘the real world’. Details in college looked like research papers, daily homework, organizing presentations, …laundry…the difference is that I had fairly solid deadlines for all of those things (clothes gotta run out at some time!) and I knew how to do all of those things- Id been doing them for years. Now? Well now I have to find out which places take my insurance and find out how much money its going to cost me and schedule times to get in. Ive been figuring out exactly what gear I want to take with me on the race…what stuff will last and work even in weird weather situations and still be fairly comfortable. 6 month grace period with loans ends in June so I have to see if deferment is an option or how to consolidate them all to make it more manageable … remembering when my car needs an oil change (its tougher than you would think) …
All of these things are simple life stuff, but its things I’ve never had to figure out before. And as far as I know there aren’t any road maps to this thing. I wish I could just move out of the States and live in the dirt loving people without having to go through all of this logistical stuff …however, its a part of the journey of getting there. It sucks right now but there is goodness in it and after it. I can allow myself to continually get overwhelmed and give into worry and anxiety OR facing reality could look more like eyes locked on Papa and resting in the fact that he’s already all over it and when he’s in the room, there is no room for anything else.
Its funny because its not even close to ‘grown up life’ where there are bills and house maintenance, kids, career or whatever else but for right now that is my version of ‘grown up life’ and I’m along for the ride of navigating these waters 🙂
On the bright side- holy dang training camp is SO SOON!!! Cant wait till I get to hang out with my squad mates in real life as opposed to just over group video chats! Its going to be SO MUCH FUN to get to know them and learn how to walk life with each other! Another fun fact: Launch is less than 4 months away!!!! WE GOIN TO ASIA YALL!!!! 😀
