When you look up the definition of desert you’ll find something along the lines of “any place lacking in something”. Tonight during our worship session God hit me with a new meaning for this in my life. The last couple days and even weeks my heart has been this desert. It has been lacking something, and that something was an abundance of Jesus. I found myself a couple times becoming angry at God for making me leave everything behind and step into something that was uncomfortable. As a result in this I distanced myself from praying as often as before as well as from any form of devotions which lead to my heart lacking what it needs most; Jesus.
So tonight during worship I sat down and it really hit me that I have said goodbye to my family and now it is real that I really only have one option: go to God for all my strength I need to get through each day and lay all my struggles at His feet. Sure, I’ll have some communication with the people back home and I have my teammates but I have a lot more independence. For me, this abundance of independence leads me to being dependent on God. I can’t do this; alone. But, I can do this with God, no doubt about it.
One thing I am learning about myself is that I hear God best during worship, and I absolutely love being in an environment where I can freely worship. Tonight I felt God lead me to write this blog with this title because in one of the songs the words we sang over and over again were “You never run dry, You never run dry”. So all of this hit me in one of the coolest ways and it was such an awesome experience hearing God walk me through how it was all going to piece together.
// My heart has been a desert, lacking Jesus and a desire to be on fire for Him. But no matter what I can always remind myself that Jesus never runs dry. And because He never runs dry my desert heart is never too dry to be refilled and “re-watered”. So, as I go out into this world I find peace in knowing that my desert heart will bloom with the life giving water that only comes from our Father. //
Abba, I am Yours.
