So, here I am 17 days away from embarking on the biggest adventure of my life. Two weeks and two days. yikes. It really has snuck up on me. God has been SO gracious in this last few weeks and I am thankful. I was able to speak about the World Race to a morning talk-show type program on Dec. 6, some more money came in which put me above $6,000 in support so far, I found out that an article I wrote for Evangelical Press News was used by two different sources, and I am was able to speak to a group of high school students about the World Race in hopes of sparking a desire in them to see Christ proclaimed to the nations.
While I’m excited I have to admit that I’m also scared. I’ve never done anything like this before and it has already been a whirlwind of an adventure for me. Please pray for me, for my heart and that the Lord would just give me peace and confidence in these next days as I prepare to leave. I have SO much to do, and so little time to do it in. What has been encouraging is what I call “post-it notes from God.” He has been doing these for me exactly when I need them and he did so for me this past Friday. I was at the mall, and while checking out at one of the stores I was talking about how I’m going to travel the world for a year. The woman checking out next to me asked me who I was going with and it turns out that she went on the World Race in 2007 and knows one of my squad leaders. God’s timing is SO amazing.
A few weeks ago I was very distraught about the trip and realized how vulnerable I am. I have been under a lot of stress and satan has been using that as a good launching point for spiritual attack. I know that this is where God has me for the next year and I’m not thinking about quitting, I’m just scared of what’s next. I’m a planner and not having a “plan” per se is frightening to me. It’s just another area of control that I need to hand over to God. It was good to cry about it and release all of those pent up emotions. My parents prayed for me which helped, but I still need peace in my heart and trust too. I NEED to trust that God will take care of my team and I, because I know that He will; my little heart just needs to have greater faith.
Please pray for me. Pray that I would draw closer to the Lord in these next few weeks before launch. Pray that the Lord would either show up in a big way financially or that He would give me the peace to know that the money’s there but I just need to be patient and have faith. I’m glad that the Lord is my shepherd and that it is HE who is in control of my life. I just need to stop being like a troublesome sheep and learn to follow Him. : – )
