Lately, I cannot seem to get away from the topic of grace. Maybe the Lord is trying to teach me something. One would think, that as a Christ-follower, I would be well acquainted and connected with grace – not only receiving, but giving. The cross – death, resurrection and ascension – by which Christ followers live and breathe, is the ultimate act of grace. No two words better describe these inimitable events than grace and love. But my mind, and I believe the minds of many who profess Christ, cannot seen to grasp this thing called grace. We turn the utter simplicity of grace into something rather complicated. I for one struggle daily to extend grace to others. And as I sit here thinking about it, grace seems most difficult when it is for someone close to me, someone that I love.
Oh, how I desire to give the grace that I live by. But I don’t always. So it brings me to my much-loved question of “why?“. Do I not fully realize the grace of Christ myself? – Is that why I struggle to give grace? I am truly changed by it – I cannot question that. So what is it? My flesh? 
My utterly incomplete and finite mind? Have I adopted society’s quest for fairness and justice in all situations as my own mindset? I realize that I am the type of person that likes things to be “fair,” but does that prevent me from giving what may not be “deserved” at times? I don’t fully know. I don’t have answers to these questions now. But I know that God is always working on me. And I know that I desperately want to reveal and give the grace that changed me; the grace the world is searching for. I want to be one to whom the “undeserving,” by society’s standards, flock to for the grace and love of Christ. Isn’t that who fled to Jesus in search of refuge? Have we, as the church, abandoned the core of Jesus’s ministry? Are we welcoming arms to those who are feeling down, worthless, condemned and undeserving? Or do we simply reinforce the way they are already feeling? For me, I hope it is the former.
Please share your thoughts on grace. How it has changed you, how you give it to others, how you have experienced or received it, moments you have struggled to give or receive grace. And of course you insight in how I can grow in grace (if you have any).
Until then, I am before the Lord, seeking to have His heart of grace (wow!).
Yours for the journey.
