Here I go.
I guess. Wait, what?
How did I get here?
I didn’t even really expect to get accepted to this.
Jesus, I don’t even know If I can do this.
I’m not holy enough for this.
How can I be effective?
What if I’m not ready?
Ugh…
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here we go.
But how am I gonna raise all this money?
Hold up, this is legit.
This is happening now?
This is happening now.
This is happening NOW!!
But what if my friends forget about me?
But what if my depression gets in the way?
But what if I’m too emotional?
But what if I’m not strong enough?
But what if I’m not equipped enough?
But what if I don’t fit in with this team?
Okay God, here we go.
Wait, what are you saying?
I can’t hear you!
I don’t understand!
Where are you leading? I’m not sure I understand.
Lord are you here? Are you with me?
You are here?
You are here.
You are here!
You are speaking?
You are speaking.
You are speaking!
Yes, Jesus.
Here we go.
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I feel like I’m losing strength.
How am I gonna do this now?
I feel too overwhelmed?
I thought I was over this freaking sin issue?
I thought these symptoms were over?
Why is this a problem?
I’m angry, father!
I’m angry!
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Surely NOT NOW!?!
Wait…even still?
you still want me when I’m angry?
You still want me when I’m angry.
You still want me when I’m angry!
Okay, father.
Here we go.
I don’t have it together.
At all.
Like….at all!!
Still?
Okay, yes, father.
I love you.
Do you know me?
You know me.
You know me!
Do you love me?
You love me.
You love me!
Okay Jesus.
Yes, Jesus.
Here we go.
My heart is open.
My life is open.
My hands are open.
Have your way.
Here we go.
thanks for reading
-Jules
