One thing that I really struggle with, is accepting the reality that I am in and being fully present. I like to go on flights of imagination and conjure up fake realities in my head that I could live in.  However, no matter what, all the books, movies, stories, and imaginative alternate realities that I desire for will not, in fact, be real. 

It’s hard to realize that, but as I get older, it’s something that God has taught me. He’s taught me that life isn’t what I expect it to be. But He has also taught me more, which is beautifully quoted by Donald Miller himself:

“The most difficult lie I have ever contended with is this: life is a story about me.” 

This world is not all about me. This life is a lot bigger than God and I. It’s about a body of believers that I am a part of. And it doesn’t stop there. 

It’s a Kingdom perspective, not an ‘I’ perspective.

For my birthday this year, I wanted to give myself the gift of grace for the reality and authenticity of life and its truth. I want to be real and honest with myself and those feelings and realities I face. I also want to be honest with those around me, and to let my words reflect my inner growth and grace. So, here are my 23 thoughts on being 23:

  1. It’s OK to not feel OK. 
  2. If people ask me a question (especially if pertaining to myself) it’s OK to say ‘I don’t know’ because the truth is no one (or I) have all the answers.
  3. Expectations can ruin relationships.
  4. Comparison is the thief of joy.
  5. There is no end goal or end product that I should be trying to achieve; we all have something that we are growing in.
  6. If I am not feeling well or need to ask for help with some thing, I don’t need to say, “I’m sorry for…” because that person volunteered to assist me.
  7. I am not in control of other people’s feelings.
  8. Other people’s feelings are not my own, and I am not called to handle or deal with them. That is for God to do.
  9. I cannot control how other people think or act.
  10. God gave us the gift of free will.
  11. God offers us freedom always, but we are the ones coming up with excuses or reasons why we cannot accept it.
  12. Grace is a gift given to us freely ; not by the things we do or say. We do not earn grace.
  13. My relationship with God is a journey and a growing experience. Not a race to win or finish first. 
  14. This life is not about me! It’s about God and His kingdom.
  15. It’s OK to ask for help— asking for help is actually done out of a place of love and humility.
  16. Pride is a disease that keeps us from growing.
  17. Other people’s relationships will look different than your’s with other people, and that’s OK because all of our relationships with our God are different.
  18. However you are feeling or how you feel is valid, and no one can argue/take that away from you.
  19. BUT we need to take ownership of our feelings and give them to the Lord. 
  20. It’s OK to grow slowly.
  21. Self care is also care for those around us.
  22. God is never finished with me.
  23. The only purpose in this life is through Jesus. Any other way is a lie and leads only to death and destruction.