This week has been hard for me physically because of the lack of sleep I’ve had; however, I’ve seen the Lord starting to change my perspective about myself. There are many things that I not aware of in my own life that I have been numb to. For example, I know I am very extroverted but I’ve realized that I have only been running from my own feelings. I have been running from my own thoughts and past hurt that I’ve never wanted to deal with. One of my least favorite this is writing this blog because I have to think about what I’m feeling or how I see things in my perspective. I’ve been so use to helping, doing, and moving that I am not able to think about how I’m really feeling. The Lord has been teaching me how to rest and the proper way to rest. It’s still a learning process but I know for me to study brings me rest. Also, long walks make me think more and allows me to listen to my surroundings. There is still so much to learn and grown. However, I know the Lords timing is perfect so I will be steadfast in him. Before I came on this trip I was praying for a word for this year and a couple of weeks ago the Lord has revealed the word “ZEAL”. Zeal means great energy or enthusiasm in pursuit of a cause or an objective. I have a new found zeal for the Lord. I am pursuing him as he is pursuing me. The Lord has been showing me what true love really looks like and how I can be a part of it. How I should be treated. How I need to grow in order to be a great wife and mother. So the Lord has been walking me through proverbs 31 to fully understanding his promise. This trip over all have been a 10/10 recommended. Cambodia is a beautiful country with so much kingdom potential. I can’t wait to see what’s next In my spiritual journey here in Cambodia.
