Honesty hour here people…I don’t know why exactly I am going on the World Race. Haha let me explain myself a little. I personally have my own reasons for wanting to go on the Race (I’ll describe what those are later on in this blog), and I have this unquestionable feeling of drive placed on my heart by God to take this mission on, but I can’t say that God has spoken to me to reveal his big complete, perfect plan for calling me to gap year YET.
Let’s say this, so pretend there’s a potluck dinner coming up right? Stick with me here; God and I have both been assigned to make mac & cheese for it. I’m concocting some good old-fashioned Kraft mac & cheese in my kitchen, while God is out here preparing a top notch, rich, creamy pan of homemade mac & cheese (with the breadcrumbs on top too!). Not to dis on Kraft or anything, but clearly His homemade stuff is going to out-do mine. And it’s like, I know His dish is going to top mine, so there’s no sense in competing with Him to make mine extraordinary. The only thing I can do is just do me.
This silly and bizarre scenario really just goes to say that God’s plans are without a doubt better than my own. My reasons can’t compete with God’s reasons, because His are breathtaking and beautiful. I can scheme, and draw out my own intentions for going on this trip, but there’s really not a great deal of use in that, considering God’s master plan is what matters. It’s in His name all deeds will be done. He has a purpose for me taking a gap year. He hasn’t told me what that purpose is yet, but truth me told, I would much rather wait to have Him show me what the point of me going is than to just have it whispered in my ear beforehand. His plan will pan out perfectly, it always does; and I cannot wait to see what it looks like.
In the meantime, I can absolutely tell you this…..I am going on the World Race Gap Year because I want people of all nations to know how deeply their Creator loves them and cares about them. I want to become more like Christ throughout this process- to serve how He served, preach how He preached, bless how He blessed. I want to grow in my faith, to be rooted in righteousness, and to be a testament to how stunning and just our God truly is. I want to abide by the instructions Jesus gave us in the Great Commission. and lastly, I want to go because I know it will be uncomfortable. Living the Christian life to the fullest can mean forcing yourself into uneasy, awkward situations where you have no control, because that’s when Christ takes over. I want Christ to be in total control, reigning over my everyday life. I crave for Christ to use me, to do a work in me, and do a work in the people I may come into contact with.
Big thanks for all the support. All praise be to the one who’s got me this far!
Julia
