sections into this blog: My expectations and My hopes for this trip. As
I think about the definition of expectation, I think that it may lead
to disappointment and limit God from what He will do for us in the 11
months of our trip if our expectations are not met. In fact one of my
first expectations is that all my expectatoins will be blown away by
God, something so different from what I expected but a lot more
significant. Though expectations are good, I just have to keep in mind
that I can’t be fixated to them. Having said that, here are my thoughts:
2 lists may grow as I continue to ponder, but these are my thoughts for
now. Feel free to drop by again at a later date for more thoughts>
- I do expect that there will be times when I will
lose focus and wonder to myself if I made the right choice in going on
this race. I know there will be times where the heartache of missing
my 2 little nieces (whom I’m very very close to) will become painfully
difficult. Something to be said about my continual wavering faith in
training. - I’m open to see the world through God’s eyes and I’m
asking Him to teach me to love with His heart so I’m expecting God to
really help me see and love others, not in my capacity but His. - I
think part of this trip will be a bit, if not a lot, of soul searching
for us – so i’m expecting that I will find out more about my own
strengths and weaknesses and how I will react to so many new situations
that we will encounter, and what my character and faith is really like
in some uncomfortable situations - I know this trip was God driven for me, so I’m expecting
growth in my walk with God, whatever capacity that may mean for me (eg.
learning or solidifying faith, learning about healing, seeing miracles,
learning how to live simply away from abundance.) - I think I will be encouraged and discouraged
- I think there will be times when I will feel isolated even in the midst of community of my team
- I’m expecting to learn so much from my teammates and the experiences and gifts that they have to offer
- I’m expecting to learn from the people we meet and “minster” to, who in turn will minister to us
- Doing something as big as this in our walk will certainly bring
us some “Aha God Moments” so i’m excited to see what these are but at
the same time, I know we will be refined through the challenges and
heartaches to come. It will be a real test of faith and character in
these times and I’m equally excited to find out what that is in me.
- We’ll
be journeying together for 11 months, sharing the same challenges and
experiences. We were all called together by one Spirit to be on this
trip, so I do believe that we have a strong common bond already. And
because of this, I do hope that I will experience community with the team, the way Acts2:42-47 describes community to be: 42They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. 43Everyone was filled with awe, and many wonders and miraculous signs were done by the apostles. 44All the believers were together and had everything in common. 45Selling their possessions and goods, they gave to anyone as he had need. 46Every
day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke
bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, 47praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved. From some of the encouraging comments I’ve read, I have a feeling we will be able to experience that. - I hope that in the 11 months of our journey, my
perspective on life, my walk and growth with God will be so
profoundly impacted that my life can be radically transformed (through
action, attitude, servitude, faith), otherwise, the trip would just
have been an adventure instead of a step of equipping for the next
step. - I hope to learn how to keep focus on God and find hope in the midst of despair and hopelessness
- I hope I learn how to focus in times of doubt, missing
home, discouragement: to focus on the purpose of the trip, and not on
my feelings - I think that I will meet some lifetime friends from this trip, as would we all. None of us signed up for this without God’s direction and I believe He called us together for a purpose.
- I hope that if/when we have disagreements, we will look
to the Lord for conflict resolution so that we can always stay in
harmony
