Why I got baptized
Baptism is an outward sign of your faith in the Lord. It symbolizes putting to death your old self, the one that lives for the world to death, and raising up your new washed redeemed self that promises to live for the spirit. This battle between the worldly self and the spirit-filled self will continue until were raised up into heaven and made perfect with out sin.
So I was baptized when I was super duper young, and honestly I got baptized just so I would not go to hell. I truly have believed in Christ and been saved since then, but the Lord was not always first in my life like he should have been. My selfish desires and fleshly self always put me or someone else I loved before him. I lived for the thrill of life, and the next adventure. I did not lean on the Lord to fill me up every single day like I should have. Also while being in Swaziland I have found true joy in salvation, which is a major component in ones faith. Knowing there is nothing in the entire world that I can do to qualify me to get into heaven except rest in his presence is the best news I have ever realized. My sins are paid. Im cloaked in righteousness. My feet are clean. ( not physically though there’s layers of dirt on those bad boys )
Please know I don’t take the matter of being baptized lightly. This is something I have wanted for awhile but since I was baptized at a young age, and always believed in the one true God I did not think that I was qualified to get rebaptized. Baptism is an outward sign of what the Lord promises to do inwardly. This was me showing everyone that I am no longer a baby christian. I am no longer luke warm or a sometimes in. No he is first in all things. He is before everything else in my life. My emotions do not change my affection, my love, or my devotion for him. This was me moving into a convenient of full devotion with him. This was me showing everyone around me and back home the new faith I have promised to walk in. He has given me eternal life, what else would I desire more than to follow him fully?
Why in the shower
So this is how it all went down. The team leaders have been walking the girls through Jesus as our husband, and our last girls night the team leaders hosted a “wedding night “ for us!!! Everyone got all dressed up, and they made shepherds pie, punch, and cake for us!!! That night we had worship, and I saw the lord as my husband for the very first time. The team leaders set up a time for communion during this, and as I was walking up to take communion I felt like I was walking down the aisle. It was a special moment between me and the Lord as I remembered the promise he has made to me. A promise to whip me clean, making me a bride dressed in white. His sacrifice and mercy for me are limitless. During worship the team leaders also read the story of Jesus washing the disciples feet, and we went into a time of washing our sisters feet. The Lord reminded me that no matter how many times I mess up and get my feet dirty, straying down my own path he with continue to take me in and whip them clean. Every time I fail to put him first and foremost. Every time I idolize someone else around me or even myself instead of the Lord he forgives me and sees me the same. As I was waiting in line to get my feet washed, the Lord told me he wanted to wash my whole body. I filled with excitement. Baptism had been in the back of my mind for along time, and I was just so filled with the joy of the Lord I had to do it ASAP. It was night and only option was a shower. So that’s exactly what I did my team leader, grace, baptized me in a shower. During worship as I was going through and recapping all the things the Lord taught me through “ Jesus is my husband “series prompted me to write my vows to the Lord kinda as a commitment to him as my everything. Before I got baptized I read that aloud to my team I couldn’t wait for a big body of water. I could not wait for a big body of water. I did not want to wait. I knew baptism was not about whether I was sprinkled or dunked or where I was. It was about showing the world what the lord has done in my life. It is a testimony of me truly dying to my self and letting the spirit of the lord come in and live inside of me being the cause of all I do. Going through and recapping all the things the Lord taught me through this prompted me to write my vows to the Lord as a commitment to him as my everything. This is what I read right before 1 got baptized
Jesus, Im gonna give you my all. I am gonna fail time and time again, but you are going to wash my feet every time. You are my constant. You are unwavering. My protection. My comfort. My sweetest delight. I promise to strive for you even when my emotions waver or i don’t feel like it because you are worthy of it all. I promise to let you be my guidance in the night, my shining star. I promise to rest in you in all circumstances. when I am strong, when I am weak, or anything in between. I promise to realize that I can not do this on my own. I promise to acknowledge I am truly nothing with out you. I promise to give you the worship you deserve. I promise to let you by my joy, my refuge, my foundation, my peace, my love, my whole entire world. Thank you for making everyday a beautiful mystery I get to unfold with you. I love you fully.
What the wedding night looked like!!!
