Yes you read that right!!! I literally wake up every single morning counting down!! Just like everyone else is counting down till Christmas! (maybe not so much the adults). As the time begins to get closer and closer and everything starts to feel surreal, emotions begin to come in as well. The feeling of excitement overpowers but so does the feeling of nervousness and sadness.
In this season, God has for sure taught me so much. He has also brought in so many new people into my life, each of which has shown me nothing but love and grace. 3 months may not seem like a long time but when you do life with them everyday it kinda seems a lot longer knowing you’ll be missing out for 3 whole months. This season was hard. I think I’ve cried more in this season than I ever have in my 19 and a half years of life.
•” God can do more with your surrender than I can with my control”.
I have been in a season of surrendering. To be honest, I hadn’t been surrendering because I was scared to Trust God. My entire life I have always had control, I had always done everything on my own, even when it came to finances. I constantly would hear His voice to just surrender and let go, so that He could be in control. We can choose to trust Him even when we can’t see it. Yes It’s hard but it is worth it to keep feeling like you have to do everything on your own? Is it worth it to feel like you’re fighting for yourself ? Is it worth it to feel like no one is there for you? Is it worth it to constantly live in that mindset? Psalms 9:10 says it “those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken us those who seek you.”
•”We can choose to trust Him, even when we can’t see it”.
Now don’t get me wrong here, all season aren’t meant to be sad or confusing. Absolutely we learn things through it and instead of asking why us, we can ask “What are you teaching me Lord?”. Even in this season God has done some amazing things that has brought so much joy and healing, it hasn’t just been sad and confusing and me not trusting. Through this all there has been moments where I got to just enjoy this season in the midst and be okay with it, even knowing that there was so much to do and so much to prepare for. Living in that moment of where God just wants you to be still and take in every good that He has done. In this season He got to restore the innocence that was ripped away from me by going to Disney 4556 times and I’ve got to share my testimony so many times and tell people how Great God is even through the bad, the good, the ugly and the beautiful. So when times get hard, don’t forget to always give thanks and allow yourself to just feel his goodness.
• We can have good seasons, seasons full of joy and laughter. A season of a good plato.
So as the countdown continues, and as hard as it’s been, it’s also been such a great season of learning and growing. So much as happened since I’ve been put my trust on Him. So much has happen since I decided to surrender. If I could encourage you today or whenever you decide to read this, it would be to chose to trust Him. Yes is easy said than done but I promise you it will bring you clarity, peace and comfort. He’s waiting for you to take the leap of faith to trust.
Thank you for all your love, prayers and support.
– Jo
