Fear
– How would your life be if you choose to live without fear? This is something that would come to mind but I never felt strong enough in my own decisions to live fearlessly. With living an abandoned lifestyle, the feeling of fear paralyzed me. I was scared to be vulnerable and know the truth to my circumstances and how I got there. I was lost, confused, and woke up every morning feeling like a slave to my own failures and rejection.
Independent and Self-Reliant
– I chose to reject authority and do things my own way. I had the mindset that said, “If anything is going to get done around here, I guess I have to do it myself.” I closed my heart to any opportunity to creating close relationships with the people around me. The conversations I did have were safe and I beat around the bush to ignore what was really hurting me. I refused to let conversations about rejection, intimacy, and trust to come up in hopes of preventing becoming more personal with someone.
Heart of a Daughter
– Having an orphan heart closed me off to experiencing being a daughter and knowing the love of my God. I then became interdependent with the Lord and acknowledged my need for help. I came to the realization that I can’t do this on my own, that I need the community God and the Body of Christ offers. I was able to allow the love of God to flow through me and give it from an abundance, overflowing into people’s lives. I can now live in peace and rest in my Father’s embrace knowing I no longer have to work my way up the scale to be seen in God’s eyes. Jesus died so we can now live in the spirit of sonship with the Father.
I Have a Quick Question
-Has the fear of trusting, fear of rejection or fear of submitting to God’s love hindered your intimacy with other people or your relationship with Him?
“The Son can do nothing of Himself, unless it is something He sees the Father doing; for whatever the Father does, these things the Son also does in like manner” -John 5:19b
