Cambodia has been such a change from all of the other countries that I have been to on the Race. I knew that things would be different and new like culture and language, but I didn’t expect all of what Cambodia has brought. Heat, sleeping on sleeping pads rather than mattresses, no AC at the house, and our ministry of teaching stretched out in our day has been uncomfortable. It has been very uncomfortable to live in Cambodia these last 2 months.
It has been very easy to “check out” and find the easiest way to get through each day here. It is very easy to not invest into the team around me, other than doing the ministry that we are together for 6 1/2 hours in our day. Honestly, the last 3 weeks have been the hardest of the Race for me. There were a lot of parts that came into play of why they were the hardest. Some of these included; me zoning out a lot of the community that surrounds me, not caring to continue looking to Christ, tuning out the reality with the excitement that home was so near, and hardship within the squad and team.
These things really took me down. I was ready to be done. But these things also brought insight as to how I am finishing the Race and how we as a squad are being attacked here in Cambodia by the enemy. I definitely felt more of a struggle to have my time with God and pour into others what God has given me.
I have seen how I have been living over the past few months here and I definitely want to step into the uncomfortableness and finish well. While being uncomfortable has been hard, I think that it has prepared me for home in small ways. Even though I left home before the Race and will be returning there, the Race has changed a lot. When I return to the states in less than a month, it will probably be uncomfortable. It will be new. So in all, these things have been good. Even though hardship has come over these past few months, I have grown more and will try to continue in my growth.
