Each day before I have my bible time, I write down all that happened the day before. At first, writing down all of these these seemed so pointless and very tiring to take the time to note what happened. However, looking back at previous months it has been awesome to see how God has moved. This happened on 12/8/18, but I want to bring it before all of you.
After my bible time, I like to journal down my prayers. I asked God to bring something very hard into my life that would test my faith. I fully meant it. I wanted to grow more in my relationship with him. I wanted something to come across my path that would almost make me question God on why I was going through this. Two weeks later, I totally forgot that I asked God to do this.
It was around Christmas time and everything was going well. I was excited with the things that were happening and I was excited for the new year. My varicose veins started to hurt once again, although this time they hurt more randomly. I was getting discouraged with why this was happening. I was struggling to see if God was even there with me. For a few times, it seemed like God wasn’t with me. I tried to focus my eyes back to him. Then I remembered, “Didn’t I ask God something about this a while ago?” I looked through my journal again and found the thing that I asked God for. I laughed at myself. How could I ask God to do this thing in my life, and then feel like God isn’t there for me? In fact, God was showing himself to me by answering my prayer. I on the other hand didn’t realize how much I really didn’t trust in my loving father.
Later, over one of our activation days, Mac received a vision from God over me that was several ups and downs that finally ended on an up. This encouraged me in the way that God knew all of what I was feeling and the things I was going through.
Now with my veins being healed, I love to remind myself of how awesome God is when I look down at my knee. My knee where I used to have pain. Pain that would encompass a lot of things that I would do. They will sometimes still bulge, but with no pain. I sometimes trace my fingers over the veins in awe of what God has done.
Looking back on all that God did over these past three months, I have grown so much in learning more about my God that loves me and wraps his arms around me in care. He is always with me and he will never leave me even when I abandon him.
I have been very encouraged with the time I have been discovering new things in God’s Word and with the people I am surrounded with. For the longest time, I would hear of others being used by God and there would be visions, healing, and many other things. I know that God wants to use us today, like he did with those written about in the bible. Those things that happened weren’t just a one and done thing. Jesus calls us to do those things and I am happy that my God still wants to use me. The people around me have impacted me the most. Their examples of faith and boldness, and their first person stories of how God has moved has uplifted me.
I have also learned to be more bold in telling others about God from examples of strangers I meet. Today on the bus to get wifi, a man whose name was Fernando, stood up in the row in front of me and started to share the gospel with everyone on the bus. Although I didn’t understand all of what he said, I caught several things. He was sharing that a person needs to repent of the things that he has done and accept Jesus for being the sacrifice that he is for them. You don’t need religious ‘titles’, all that matters is Christ and the gift that you have in him. Jesus is all you need. Fernando talked for a good 20 minutes before being asked by another man to be quite because his son was sleeping. Fernando showed me boldness. He took a stand for God. After he finished, I told him thank you for speaking and for God to bless him.
He truly knew the prize that he was running to, his Savior Jesus Christ. I will always remember Fernando and the boldness that he had. God will give to him according to what he has done for the Kingdom. He has encouraged me, and I pray that he has planted seeds in many other lives.
