I am twenty-six years years old. Twenty- three years ago my parents decided things weren't working and got divorced. My mother, sisters, and I moved away from Alabama to Georgia. And I have lived there ever since. Around 11 or 12 was when I first got the chance to really get to know who my das was by going to his house every summer. 11 or 12 years is a long time without your dad around. As a result of that I have some "daddy issues". As some call them. I tend to think I am not worthy (I use to. We will get to that). I have known that for a while. I thought I had worked those things out in counseling and I was wrong.
The last week I have I have been at training camp. I feel like everytime I was feeling unworthy God sent someone over to me to pray over me to tell me I was. Speaking into my life telling me those words I spoke over myself were not true. One of the night's at training camp we had a session on grieving. I was started to feel that was definitely something I needed to grieve about, my feelings of unworthiness. I opened up to receieve what I needed to grieve over it. I began to weep, no cry out mourning over all those times lost. I mourned never getting to cry into the arms of my father. That was when God my DIVINE FATHER held me in HIS arms and brought joy where there was none.
It took ahwile. Twenty-six years to be exact. But when I mourned and moved on to Joy I could finally scream out I am worthy, I am a mighty son of the Father the Lord most High. So I speak to all who will read this do not be afraid to grieve what you have lost, for on the other side of it there is JOY!
I want to thank you all who have prayed for me and donated so far towards my trip. Without your contributions I would not have had the blessing of going to training camp and receive so many blessings!(More blogs to come about that). I am still about 10,000 short of reaching my goal of being fully funding. I am still about 1000 short of my next check point coming up in a few weeks at being at $6500. You can still click on the support me tab on the left of the screen to donate towards my trip. A new way to help support my trip and also another mission is by scrollingdown to the bottom of the screen. After doing that click on the Feed the Hungry picture. It will open a link to their website. You have the opporunity to read about them and pledge support for a child and community at 32 dollars a month. For everyone that does this through my blog I receive $50 towards my World Race account. Thank you for taking the time to read my blog.I promise I will try to keep them shorter. Please keep me in your prayers as I continue this journey!!!!
